i didn't like crowded places. not at school, not at shopping malls not even at those little coffee shops. after a long, dramatic weekend it was already Monday. honestly , i just wasn't in a good mood today. after my dad left this weekend after a stupid fight with my mum, i cried, a lot. they are always fighting. when i was younger i used to go to my best friend Shawn , but after a lot of tears and drama he wasn't really there for me anymore. we grew apart. i hated him now , he doesnt even ask me how i'm doing and he never reacts to my texts.
but back to where i am today, i was at school. it seemed like math class just didnt end. i already had a few classes but this one was just way too long. thank god i had a lunch break after this. me and my best friend Ally always meet in the hallway to get some lunch together. today was a busy day, people were everywhere and no one watched where they were going. i finally found a spot at the table where me and my friends always sit. i saw Shawn walking into the cafeteria, i looked next to me and realised that the only seat that wasn't taken was right next to me.
also Shawn's friend sat at the table beside us... he looked over at me and i quickly looked away. shit. no. i have been walking away from him for months now, i can't face him yet. he hurt me and i still have no idea what the fuck i did wrong. i knew Ally was already low key panicking next to me. i felt him sit down next to me. breath y/n , breath.
he was looking at me, i could feel it. is it weird if i just want to take a quick glance at him? i quietly looked at him, i couldn't look away. his hair grew a little, he still has those cute wrinkles around his eyes. he was breath taking, and let me tell you, he still is. he got even more pretty to be honest. before i knew it i had those big honey brown eyes looking back at mine. we stared a little longer at each other than i intended to. it was nice. it felt like it was just us two in this room.
'hey', those words, i hoped he would say sometime. 'um hi Shawn'. okay and now what _ should i say something else? 'how have you been'he asked me, good question , i honestly don't really know how to feel right now. 'could be better actually, how about you?'.....'oh uh well not that good either would you like to talk about it , somewhere uh, more private?'. 'yes'.
after telling him the entire story about my parents fighting all the time and my dad leaving, i cried again. and no i wasn't crying i was actually sobbing, but this time he was here to comfort me so he took me in his arms and rubbed small circles on my back with his huge hands. 'i missed you y/n, i'm sorry for not trying to contact you, i thought you'd be better off without me'. 'it's okay Shawn... as long as you're here now'. 'i promise you y/n i'll never leave you again'. before i knew it he locked his lips with mine , i wished moments like this could last forever but sadly the schoolbell rang so we had to go our separate ways again. 'can i see you again after school?'.
'yes please'.
i don't think i'll hate crowded places ever again.
I POSTED TWICE THIS WEEK, BE PROUD
