Betrayal like no other

What if i knew but was in denial?

I’m pretty sure i knew her was cheating but I didn’t want to think he was i mean come on what girl would but then i realize all the signs the hickeys ,when he turns me down for sex ,and all the times he smelled like another woman .But I was in denial I didn’t want to think that i just wanted to think he loved me ,he wouldn’t do something like that ,i was hoping and praying he wouldn’t break my heart that he wouldn’t take the last thing that’s whole about me and smash it but he did, and it hurt like a mutherfucking bitch .

But that wasn’t the worst part the worst part was who he did it with I mean if he didn’t with another person ya, I would be heartbroken angry upset but, I would eventually have a shoulder to cry on I would have just gone to my mum and asked for her advice but I couldn’t and why because he was fucking her ,not some bitch named Diana ,not a whore named Tessa but, my own MOTHER the person who gave birth to me the person who was supposed to love me the one person I had put my whole trust in my mother.

I’ve never felt this angry this disgusted with myself with my own family for that matter, I just wanted to die.im an ugly piece of shit that even my own boyfriend of 5 FUCKING years and best friend since BIRTH. Yes I said birth his mum and my mum where best friends that was until she passed away, from getting shot on a subway.

But what hurts the most is that I Put my life on hold to help her, to pay her bills because she was going to lose her home and I dint want to have my mum living on the streets so what did I do ?i dropped out of university ,My dream college just to help her, all my hard work all my dedication to my school, all so she a can do this to me so she can make me feel like shit like im nothing but a side bitch, a cover-up,And she though all this she has the god danm nerve to say she needs money, like the fuck you think this?

So from here on out my name is no longer Kaylena N. Worth, but now is Kaylena N. Jefferson,

No longer is Maria Worth my mum she had been disowned  I am now parentless, shit I’m now family less.

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So yay heres the second part and im pretty sure it sucks ass so ya but umm if you read this tell me if i should continue or not.....

Queen Out ^.~