Rejected And Strong [ You're Not A Story. ]

Chapter 11

The Realization

Mark Potter   POV

I slip through the page of the document in front of me. I got eye bags cause I couldn't sleep at all last night.

I spent my time finishing several documents in my room at pack house.

I can't sleep in my bedroom because surely Stewart is there. I just didn't want to disturb her because she was upset with me.

Yesterday, Renessmee came bringing the cake for my mom. I didn't think she would came directly to my house cause usualy she go straight to the pack house. I was surprised to see her coming when me and Stewart were talking in the kitchen.

I mean, all this time I know she's always been avoiding me, even I rarely see her around the pack house, it's not like I'm deliberately looking for her. And what I heard from Sam too; my Beta said, she spent more time in college with her friends. Sam always tells me what all the pack members do because he's a bit talkative, well a little. However, what he didn't know was that I have two mates. Not only him but all the pack members don't know the real thing because I just need one mate.

Except now because Stewart already knew the truth yesterday.

She looks very angry and disappointed in me because I have lied to her, this is the first time we both quarreled after a long time. Before, me and she were always in such a harmony but since my eighteenth birthday and right then I know that I have another mate other than Stewart, I just don't know what to do, I don't know her and I also have Stewart, so I rejected her. I know that sounds nonsense and selfish but, what can I do? I was very confused at the time and what if everyone knew that my other mate isn't pretty. What if everyone can't accept that? There is no other choice. Stewart, she seemed to be aware of something strange from me and asked me what really happened but I always avoid her questioned.

Until that afternoon, Stewart asked me again about Renessmee. At that moment I was really surprised and panicked, I tried to hide my anxious face but Stewart could see it directly in me. And in the end, she found out that Renessmee was my mate, I can't hide it anymore. I told her the reason why I rejected Renessmee, but I was shocked at her response, she suddenly slapped me and blamed me for what I had done. She blamed all the pain that Renessmee felt was because of my selfishness. I'm confused why she can't accept if I had rejected Renessmee. Is it possible that she doesn't object to this? Does she agree if I have two mates and she receives Renessmee as my mate? Is that why she really doesn't like it when I rejected her? As I remember Renessmee's face, she looked tired, scared, and sad. I could feel the pain in her eyes and feared when she saw my eyes. My reality seems to crack seeing her in such a poor state. Is this my fault? She can't be this scared of me after I rejected her right? Was I the reason she was so hurt? Am I really making the wrong choice? Its not like I pushed her hard enough to hurt her... right? I don't know. All I could do right now was figure out how to fix all this.

I look at the picture frame on the table at my right side.

I always see it when I'm feeling down.

It was a picture of Stewart I'd taken while she was asleep when we were at flower field.