your experiences

23,fear of losing

 I decided to do that surgery
And now I'm waiting for shawn to come back home ,I'm so stressed about it but I try keep calm I heard door bell ring I run to door
Finally he is here I hug him and kiss him
Me:welcome back dear
Shawn :thank you sara,what it is u look kind of excited
I took his coat and then said
Me:shawn I will do that surgery!
Shawn:omg for real?!thank you sara
Then shawn hold me into his arms
And kiss my forehead
Me:omg shawn!
Shawn :what's wrong hun do u feel pain?
Me:nooooo one of them is kicking
I hold his hand and put it on my tummy then look at his face to see reaction, his smile grow big on face
Shawn:I can feel them ,it's sweet 💖
Me:so how u think I feel!they move inside of me and play some time, kick ,I feel them always that is why making decisions is hard for me
Shawn:yes I see ,you are a mother and I'm father,omg I can't believe it
Shawn kiss my lips and took my hand
Shawn : promise me that u will survive and we will raise our children toghter!
Me:I will survive and live for ever with you
After dinner shawn call to my dr told him everything and he said he will set a date for surgery and it's in 2 week so I will complete 6 month, I'm so stressed I don't know what will happen I'm just hopeful i will survive and raise my children
Shawn come and hug me from back,I look back and smile he got a kiss from my lips and then put his chin on my shoulder
Shawn :thank you sara ,thank you so much
Me:well I did it for my ALISSIA and Sam hahha
Shawn:ALISSIA and Sam?
Yes:I found name for them 😂
Shawn:girl you didn't told me before I'm their father I have this right to know too 😂
Me:well you know it now daddy shawn
Shawn :omg it's weird call me daddy
Me:so how about mommy sara hahah
Shawn:well it's sweet I like it much
Shawn kiss my neck and smell my skin
Shawn :how come your skin is always perfect and smell like heaven
Me:well let me think.....I take shower every day😂what you don't do,now go and take shower so I will give you dinner 😂
Shawn:are you saying I smell ?
Me:like hell 😂 😂 😂
We both laugh so loud and shawn start tickling me I got breathless 
Me (breathless ):shawn stop I can't breath
Shawn:oh ok sorry😂I forgot you are pregnant
He went to shower I sit on sofa cuz I was so tired and drink some water and turn tv on ... after 30 min I felt pain in my tummy so badly I couldn't take it ,I try reach phone to call ambulance ..I couldn't get it and fall and faint....at same time shawn come out
••••SHAWN POV
I just come out and look for sara I went to hall I saw her faint on ground,I run to sara I got tear up... I shook her try wake her up but call her name thousands of time but nothing I call ambulance they came and took her.....I cry so much it's my fault..... what should I do if sth happen to her...  I hate myself