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My mother came and hold me tight ,she kissed my forehead and hold my hand
Mom:are you ok sara?do u feel pain anywhere ?
Me:a little in my tummy,and my whole body is in pain
Mom:you will be fine,I believe that
Me:idk still mom,idk .... I all felt bad from when I woke up 
shawn :you promised to me that you will get well...please keep it
Me: I don't know shawn,I will stay with you till my last breath
Shawn smiled,his smile is still beautiful ...my eyes felt heavy and I fall asleep again
Shawn PoV:
I don't know how to tolerance it,seeing her in pain is killing me....
Why my life turn like this...why...why my sara should go through this much...why we should suffer...she even can't stay awake for 1 hour..she can't eat anything....I'm dying from inside
•••10 day later
We went back home,She threw up 20 time in day,even though she doesn't eat anything but she puke...she lost so much weight still can't walk and all day long in bed....its killing me how she suffer....I feel so much pain in my heart....some times I can't take it but when i compare it with what sara go through  its really nothing...
I went into room to gave her medicen which Dr prescription for her...she was awake
Me:hey beauty,good evening
Sara(so slow and with much pain ):
Hey handsome,good evening 
I went close and hold her hand
Me:are you ok?aren't you hungry?
Sara:no honey I'm not hungry, but I'm good don't worry dear
Me:I bring your medicen, but before having them please drink this juice,you got so thin
Sara: ok ,I will try honey, give it to me
I gave her the juice and help her to drink it,but she couldn't drink it..again
Sara:sorry honey, seems I can't
A tear go down on my face I wipe it fast and smile at her
Me:it's ok honey, let me give you ,your medicen
At least she had her medicen...i help her lye on bed again...
Sara:shawn can you please bring Alissia and Sam ? I missed them so much....
Me:ok honey wait a min I be back fast....
I brought them,sara hold them and smell them then kiss them on their little cheeks...she was smiling...a really beautiful smile was on her face...I went on bed and got my arm around of her and kissed her and smell her
Me:you are still so beautiful when you smile sara...I'm so lucky
Sara smiled again..I'm kissed her lips...
Sara:I'm really thankful from you
Me:why you are thankful from me?
Sara:cuz you gave me these beautiful babys,I love you so much Shawn...
Me:I love you even more
Sara:I really want feed them one time myself
Me:honey you can't, it will take your energy
Sara: please shawn...maybe I never did it
Me: I told you a thousand times never say this
Sara:I'm sorry shawn
Me:ok,but only one of them
Sara got so happy and hold Alissia and feed her...her beautifull smile
It melt my heart...after she made them sleep I took the children to their room...I come back to our room
Sara:the weather must be really beautiful out,everything must be white
Me:yeah it's beautiful out
Sara:can you please take me out ?I want see out
Me:but sara it's really cold out,you will catch cold
Sara: please shawn...I want enjoy my last days with you...
I couldn't control my tears they just fall..
i help her to dress her up and cover her well then help her sit on wheelchair...
I took her out,every thing was white and all the city was decorated with Xmas stuff
She was happy and smiled all the time....
Sara:shawn can you buy me some cookies
Me: you want cookies!?ok I will go and back soon
I went and bought her cookies with hot coffee, unbelievable she ate them and didn't puke...after 1 hour she ask me to took her back...we went back I help her lye on bed again..
Sara:I'm sleepy and tired....
Me:me too honey...
I lyed next to her and hold her hand
Me:I love you so much sara
Sara: I do more...shawn..promise me..if anything happens... you will take care of yourself and children
Me:I promise but ...never without you I can't do it ..
Sara smiled :you can dear...you can
We both got tear up...I hold her into my arms ,her head was on my chest I could feel her slowly breath...I fondle her beautiful hair till we both fall a sleep