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35,give it time!

I was about to go to kitchen then i saw sth... l went close..its a woman...I got scard...who it is! A ghost!..I went more close...,and suddenly  she turn her face to me I got so scared..that I almost yell... it was mom
Me:mom why you sit here in darkness you almost killed me! I got so scared!
Mom:haha sorry honey..I was worry about you and couldn't sleep..btw why you came down are you hungry? Want me make you sth?ha?
Me :no I'm just thirsty I want drink some water
After I drank water I went and sat besides of mom
Me:mom did you found  me a babysitter?
Karen:no need I will take care of them myself I don't want a stranger rise my grandchilds
Me:mom you have so much to do I don't want disturb you..
Karen:no problem honey i can... ah right! school is over so ayliah will be here and help you with babys so nothing to be worry about
Me: ok mom thanks
After some min of talking I heard babys crying..me and mom ran to them..feed them a bit and make them sleep again...it was 4 Am already so I went to my bed again and try sleep again..with this hope that when I wake up..I see these all were nightmares and my beloved sara is here again ...
••••2 year later
 ..I went to her grave for talking like always..I got there and start talking with her
Me:hey beauty..how are you today?
Well I wanna talk a bit with you
2 year pass now...Sam and Alissia learn how to walk...I watch their growth and their trys to learn things..I wish you were here as well to see them how they grow..play..cry..laugh... and how sweet they call me dad..its a pity you didn't get to see none of these and never get to hear them call you mom..I missed you so much you know I come here every Sunday and buy you ,your favorite flower...but what's use in buying you those when you can't smell them and smile at me and say a beautiful thank you then hug me and I kiss your lips..ah gosh..at least Alissia and Sam become my joy for life..all I have is them..the most beautiful children in world and the most precious gift I got from you honey..I will be thankful for rest of my life from God
Btw do you know what my mom did..its hilarious...she set a blind date for me (shawn got a smirked  on face)i went to 5 and told all of them that I'm a married man and have a wife and love her alot..so they all rejected me..I'm so happy about it you know..none of you were similar to you..not even 1% of your beauty or humor they all act like princess even though they weren't ...but you never had to act cuz you born a princess..I'm so lucky girl cuz you were in my life..well sara gotta go my love its 6 pm and children are waiting at home..and I missed them so much ..so  see you soon honey I will come again tomorrow..love you