your experiences

29,depression

Claire pov :
I decided to go and visit shawn..so I dress up and went to his home
I was behind his door...I was a little hesitate to knock but I did ,3 knock
Knock.. Knock.. Knock....someone open the door...it was ayliah..I got happy and hugged her
Me:hey ayliah, how are you? How is shawn!?
Ayliah :I'm fine but.... shawn isn't
He makes me worry...its 4 day he didn't eat anything...he is all in his room and crying...only some time comes out when he hear babys crying....
Me:omg it's so bad... can I come in and see him?
Ayliah :omg I totally forgot, come in plz
I went in and saw that house is same as day I left...sara dresses were still on sofa...and her medicen were on desk...
Me: ayliah why you didn't pick sara stuff...
Ayliah :I tried one time but shawn got angry and told me not to touch her stuff...
Me:oh ok,where is he now?
Ayliah:he is in babys room and make children sleep
Me:ok I will wait
I waited 30 min but he didn't come out ...I decided to go and see what is happening there...I was behind the door...then open it a little bit and look in...shawn was sitting on a chair and ALISSIA was in his arm and asleep...his eyes were close he look so calm..I went in room...I looked in cradle...Sam was asleep too..I really have pity for these cute babys they will grow up without their mother...I was about touch his cheeks then shawn opened his
eyes
Shawn :don't touch him..
Me:omg sorry...but why...
Shawn :he is a bit sick and slept hardly..so don't touch him
Me:ok..btw are you feeling well?
Shawn :I'm good don't worry about me
Me:but ayliah said it's 4 day you didn't ate anything...I got worry
Shawn :if I be hungry I will eat ,I'm not hungry
Me:shawn it make no sense..every human eat at least 1 time in day..
Shawn :i'm just not hungry..and don't want talk about it
Me:maybe better visit a doctor ha?
Shawn got angry and said
Shawn :i said I'm fine, get out of room
I went out of room,I didn't meant anything bad only I'm worry about him..maybe I overdose...idk whatever..ayliah run to me
Ayliah :what happening, I heard shawn yelling
Me:nothing..just a little angry cuz I ask him visit a doctor
Ayliah :he isn't well not at all...its 2 week she died..absolutely he will be sad and angry cuz he lost his lover
Ayliah tears come down slowly then kept on
Ayliah :she was a really good friend
With me...i really loved her,i still can't believe it she isn't between us
I got tear up too and hug her
Me: I know it's really hard...she was my bff too and I loved her...but for shawn it's different and more difficult cuz she was his lover,wife and mom of his 2 babys.
After some min that we talk...ayliah said
ayliah : would you like to have some coffee?
Me:yeah thank you...
Ayliah went to make coffee ready
Shawn came out from babys room and walk toward me..he came and sit on sofa
Shawn:I'm so sorry claire...i shouldn't yell at you..
Me:it's ok,i didn't get upset shawn
Shawn got up and was about to leave,i hold his arm..he turn his face back to me
Me:can you please stay here, I came to visit you not your house
Shawn:ok
He sat on sofa again ,and stare at sara clothes which were next to me
Me:shawn,will you please let me clean up the living room
Shawn: no need I will do it later myself
Me:but....ok shawn...if you need help just call me I will be here even if it be 5 Am
Shawn:thank you claire
Ayliah come in living room...with 3 coffee...her eyes shine cuz shawn was here and calm...
Ayliah :omg shawn! It was 2 week you didn't came and sit here
Shawn:not really...I came here at midnight and watch some of sara films...you are just sleep at that time
Me:omg really!
Ayliah put coffee on table, one in front of shawn, 1 me and 1 herself
Shawn:I didn't ask for coffee why you bring 3
Ayliah :um..cuz..cuz...
Me:I ask her...just drink it please shawn
Shawn pick it up and took it close to his lips and drink a bit and put it down then got up and again in his room