ALPHA BRANDON { On Hold }

Chapter 16: Confessions.

Dorothy's pov.

I laid down quietly on the bed, dreading how my mood blended with the almost empty room. Once again, I slept in my appointed room, not that I wanted to. I haven't bothered with getting up since I became fully awake, I just laid still occasionally glancing at the pastel orange wall clock which had bold black numbers on it and two golden hands: weird. whenever the birds take on higher pitches a frown will cross my face and my left eye twitch.

With a deep breath, I got up to the bathroom to get ready for the day.

I've been in the pack for three days and it feels like I've been here for longer. Not that my stay has been what I had imagined. It's been a rollercoaster ride, with weird and endless variety of emotions I've experienced in the little span of time.
I've been joyous, angry, perturbed, sad, hopeful and almost in-Love.

I shoved my tiredness in one corner and stood from the bed into the bathroom.
After I've had my shower, I walked out of the suite, making sure to tiptoe because I don't want to wake Brandon or any other pack member but nothing ever goes my way.

As I pulled the door open, Brandon stood behind it with a knowing smile.

"where are you off to? " he smiled knowingly at me, "were you sneaking out? "

"pftt, I wasn't sneaking " my fake smile widening by seconds.

He moved closer to me and gave me a peck on my lips, "morning beautiful, how,'d you sleep? "
My hands found their way to my cheeks to cover their redness.

"great, you? "

"I couldn't sleep" he gave me a sad smile, his brows drawing together in a small frown.

Somehow his words broke my heart. So much has happened and I can't say with confidence that I've been there for him 24/7. I've been bothered about the Luna ceremony and responsibilities that I totally left out my mate and how he could be feeling.

I kept my gaze on the floor, my confidence somehow deflated and I couldn't bring myself to look him in the eye any longer.

"are you okay? Dora, what's wrong? " Brandon asked. He placed his pointing finger under my jaw, raising my head to meet his gaze.

My heart broke the second time.

I am doing this to my mate.

"if you're worried about me not sleeping at all, it was only because I had pack work to take care of" guilt replaced his features as he looked me straight in the eye.

Now I'm making him feel guilty for something he knows nothing about.

I cleared my throat and spoke up, "I just feel horrible. I've been worried about the wrong things instead of my mate's feelings. You have been busy all through yesterday to the early hours of this morning preparing for my Luna ceremony and Clinton but I've been worried about female pack members and getting jealous over silly things"

"you didn't even sleep a wink and I just went to bed. I didn't bother to check on you, if you had something to eat or how you are holding up with everything. You know? I have been trained all my life to care for my mate and I just forgot. Mom would be so disappointed with me. "

Realising everything was quiet, I looked at Brandon. He stared right back at me with... Adoration.

Weird, what did I say?

"you're quiet? Why? " I asked. Searching his eye for any form of anger or disappointment.

"you were jealous? Of what? "