Save Me

Chapter Fourteen

Calum just confirmed everything I thought. I knew that if I told him he would leave, he probably thinks I'm disgusting. I never should have told him about what happened with Cam.

When I lived with my parents I was at a really low point and I never thought I would get that low again but it's worse than ever right now.

I looked down at my thighs and saw the scars from when I used to self harm and all I could think of was going to the bathroom and grabbing my razor.

I know I need to be strong but I feel so empty and worthless right now. Calum leaving is making everything worse and I don't know how much longer I can hold out.

I got up and went to the bathroom, grabbing my razor and pulling the blades out of it. I sat on the edge of the tub. Tears were streaming down my face, and my hands were shaking as I stared down at my thighs.

I put the blade against my skin and applied pressure. It didn't even hurt, no physical pain was worse than what I felt emotionally.

Calum's P.O.V

I arrived at Ashton's house and called him. The phone rang about three times then he picked up.

Ashton- Hey dude, what's up?

Me- Come outside right now, I'm here.

Ashton- is everything okay?

Me- Just come outside. Now.

I hung up and waited for Ashton.

He came outside and got into the passenger seat. "Are good? You sound really pissed off," he asked with a worried look on his face.

"Long story short Alanna is dating this guy Cam, they met before we did. Anyways he's abusive and he raped her last night and I need your help." My voice was filled with rage.

"Holy fuck..." Ashton whispered as he looked down to his lap, processing what I just told him. "What do you need?" He asked looking back towards me. I could tell he was pissed off too.

"We're going to his house and teaching him a lesson. Right now," I stated as I gripped the steering wheel. "Of course. Let's go." And with that I sped off.

I've been to one of Cams parties before so I knew where he lived. We drove for about two minutes then pulled up to his house.

"Ready?" I asked as I undid my seat belt and opened the door. Ashton got out as well, "let's do this" he said as we approached cams front door.

I knocked aggressively and waited impatiently for Cam to answer.

About 30 seconds later he opened the door, "who are you?" He asked with a confused look on his face.

Seeing him made me angrier than I was before. I didn't even say anything, I punched him square in the nose and he fell back a bit. "What the fuck?!" He yelled.

Ashton pushed him to the ground and started punching him in the face. He got 5 good punches in before he got off of Cam.

I bent down beside him and got in his face. "If you ever touch Alanna again I will kill you," then I punched him in the face one more time before Ashton and I left and got in the car.

"Well now that that's taken care of I need to go back to Alanna," I said as we started to drive back to Ashton's. "Of course man!"

We drove in silence until I pulled up to Ashton's house, "text me tomorrow and let me know how Alanna's doing." He said as he unbuckled his seat belt.

"Sure thing," I said before he closed the door. I pulled away and started driving back to Alanna's.

I can't believe someone is capable of doing this to Alanna, she's such a sweet caring girl. She doesn't deserve any of this

I pulled up to the house and got out of the car. When I entered the house it was quiet.

I checked Alanna's room but she wasn't there, I listened carefully and heard her crying in the bathroom. I knocked lightly on the door, "Alanna?"

"One second," She said quietly. I could hear her moving some stuff and then she opened the door. Her eyes were blood shot and puffy.

It broke my heart to see her like this, I pulled her in for a hug but she didn't hug me back.

Alanna's P.O.V

I was sitting in the bathroom crying, still sliding the blade against my skin when I heard Calum knock on the door. "Alanna?"

I panicked and threw the blade into the garbage. I grabbed some toilet paper and wiped the droplets of blood from my thigh. Why did he even come back?

I opened the door and he stared at me for a second before pulling me in for a hug. I don't know why he's hugging me but I didn't hug him back.

"Cam is taken care of, he won't hurt you again," he whispered as he played with a strand of my hair. "What do you mean?" I managed to say in a weak voice.

"Ashton and I payed him a visit, he got what was coming to him." I was confused, I thought he left because he didn't want to be with me anymore.

I looked up at him, "so you're not leaving me?" I asked as a few tears ran down my cheeks.

"Of course not! What makes you think that?" He asked as he rubbed my arms up and down to try and comfort me.

"You probably think I'm disgusting now..." I said looking down. "I would never think that about you, you're the best thing that's ever happened to me. I didn't think that I would like you this much after such a short period of time but I would do anything to keep you safe." He said as he dried off my cheeks with his shirt.

I hugged him back and started to feel a little bit better. "Can we lay down and watch some t.v?" I asked loosening my grip from him. "Anything for you princess," he said smiling.

He started walking towards my room and I looked down at my thigh, I noticed some blood still seeping through the cuts. "I'll just be a second," I said quickly before closing the bathroom door.

I grabbed some toilet paper and wiped the cuts again, applying some pressure hoping it would help stop the bleeding. After a couple of seconds it finally stopped.

I went to my room and opened my drawer looking for some track pants. I pulled down my shorts making sure to face away from calum so he doesn't see the fresh cuts on my thigh.

I sat on the end of my bed and started to put on my track pants. Calum moved to the end of the bed and sat beside me. Before I could pull up my track pants all the way he saw my cuts.

He grabbed my wrists lightly and stopped me from pulling up my track pants. He moved in front of me and crouched down.

I couldn't even look him in the eyes, I just stared down at my thigh. "Alanna... did you just do this?" He asked with a soft quiet voice.

I couldn't bring myself to speak, I just stared at my thigh. He put his hand under my chin and moved my head up so he could look at me.

"Alanna you are beautiful, you're such a good person. I know I have no idea what you're going through right now but please don't resort to hurting yourself." I could hear the pain in his voice.

"I just don't know what else to do, he broke me Calum." I said as my eyes started to fill with tears again.

"I'm here for you Alanna, please just talk to me." He looked so hurt and I felt bad for making him feel that way.

"I promise I will talk to you from now on, thank you for being here for me. I honestly thought that you didn't want to be with me anymore and that was why you left." I'm happy that he's here, I don't think I can be alone right now.

"Don't ever think that," he said as he leaned up and kissed me. "I will keep you safe no matter what, nothing will ever happen to you."

I finished putting my track pants on and we laid in bed turning the t.v on. I put on South Park and laid on his chest as he played with my hair.

We laid in silence and watched the t.v as I slowly managed to drift off to sleep.

I really hope tomorrow is easier.