Save Me

Chapter Eleven

Have you ever had an anxiety attack where you can't breath, while also making out with the person who abuses you? Yea it's not fun.

I broke the kiss with Cam and started gasping for air. He sat me down on the sink and looked in my eyes. "Babe are you okay?" Cam asked frantically.

I tried to say no but nothing came out so I just shook my head. I was struggling to fill my lungs with air and I was so scared.

Cam put a hand on my cheek, "Alanna its okay, you're
with me, your boyfriend." Looking at Cam almost made the anxiety attack worse so I closed my eyes and pictured Calum.

I focused on my breathing and pictured his smile and the sound of his laugh. I placed my hand over the one Cam had on my cheek and pretended it was Calums hand.

My breathing slowly became steadier and I opened my eyes. "Are you good now?" Cam asked. I smiled weakly, "yea I think so" Cam leaned in for what I though was going to be a quick kiss but he lifted me up again.

I pulled my head away from his, "I just wanna go watch the movie now.." I said shyly. "What ever" Cam said before setting me down and leaving.

I came out from the bathroom and went back to the living room, sitting beside Cam on the luv-seat again.

I looked at Ashley and she mouthed the words "are you okay?" I just nodded my head and opened another beer.

By the time the movie ended I had drank about 9 or 10 beers. I also had 2 beers before I went to the bathroom and I knew that once I stood up I was fucked, so I just sat there waiting for someone to say something.

"Let's go play in the rain!" Allison yelled after she looked out the window and noticed it was raining. "Great idea!" Ashley exclaimed as she got up from the couch and ran outside. Cam stood up then held out his hand to help me up. I took his hand and stood up, only to trip on my own feet and almost fall. Cam helped me catch my balance, "are you good?" "I'm fine" I said letting go of his hand and running outside.

Allison ran up to me and slung her arm around me, "how are you feeling?" She asked giggling. "Drunk" I replied before grabbing her hand and running over to Ashley. "Let's run around together!" I yelled grabbing Ashley's hand with my free one. "You're crazy!" Ashley yelled trying to keep up with me.

The three of us started dancing in the rain and singing do re mi by the one and only Blackbear, it was a blast!

Then in mid chorus I wiped out on the wet grass and cut my knee.

"Fuck" I muttered. Ashley came running to my side "are you okay girl?" She asked. "I'm peachy! It's only a scrape," I said giggling. She helped me up then Cam came and put my arm around his shoulders.

"Let's go get your drunk ass cleaned up." "I'm fine Ca-" he cut me off, "I don't care what you say, your being a sloppy drunk and I'm cleaning up your knee. Now shut up and walk."

I just stayed silent as we walked to the bathroom. He lifted me on the sink and grabbed a cloth, running it under warm water. He started carefully washing my knee.

"Next time don't drink us much, you're embarrassing me." "What are you my dad?" I asked, I don't know what came over me but I was done with his bullshit. "What did you say?" He asked angrily, looking shocked. "Did I fucken stutter?" I spit back.

Cam just gently set down the cloth then stared at me for a bit. Out of the blue he picked me up and put me over his shoulder, leaving the bathroom and going to who knows where.

"You dick put me down! What are you doing!?" I said pounding on his back. All of the sudden I was thrown onto a soft mattress. Cam closed and locked the door behind him, "bad girls get punished" cam stated before going to the night stand and pulling out hand cuffs. I tried to get up and run to the door but Cam through me back down to the bed and cuffed me to the head board.

I started crying, "cam please don't." He just ignored me, attaching his lips to mine. I didn't kiss back obviously. I was crying hysterically at this point.

His lips moved down to my chest slowly before he ripped my shirt off, and when I say I ripped I mean he literally ripped it down the middle and took it off of me. "Cam you don't have to do this," I cried as he pulled down my leggings. "You're right, I don't, but I want to." He said with a devilish smile across his smug face.

I tried screaming but he put his hand over my mouth then reached in the night stands drawer again. This time he pulled out a cloth and stuffed it in my mouth. At this point I was completely helpless.

He had my free arm pinned down while he slowly thrusted in to me. I was frozen from fear just hoping one of the girls would come to see what was taking so long and find us.

A couple seconds later there was a knock on the door. "Alanna, Cam? Are you guys in there?" I started screaming through the cloth but it was no help. Allison tried opening the door and realized it was locked. "Alanna are you in there!? Are you okay?" She asked while slamming against the door.

This was my chance, I started wiggling and moving as much as I could so Cam would pull out. When he finally did I kneed him in the balls as hard as I could. The grip of him holing down my free arm came loose so I took the cloth from my mouth and started screaming, "Allison help me! Please find a way to open the door and hurry!" I screamed. Then all of the sudden the door swung open and Allison came running in. "Oh my god Alanna what happened!?" She asked as she covered my exposed body with the covers.

"Just find the keys and get these cuffs off of me!" I cried. "Here," she said as she unlocked the handcuffs. She tossed me my pants, "where is your shirt?" Allison asked. "The dick ripped it..." I said as I looked at cam on the ground grabbing his balls in pain. "Here take my sweater, let's go." I put on my leggings and her sweater and we went to the car.

Ashley came out to the car with us to, we all got in and sped off as quick as possible. Allison only had one beer so she drove us home.

I didn't talk the whole ride back, I just looked out of the car window as flashes of Cam rapping me went through my mind.

After what felt like forever we pulled up to my apartment, I said goodbye to the girls and grabbed my stuff from the trunk. I don't know what to tell Calum, or if I even have the courage to tell him what happened. After the car sped off I just stood on my porch in front on the door staring at it. I don't want to be here, I just want to be alone...

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I know this took forever and I apologize! I typed the chapter twice then it erased twice, luckily this one didn't so again I'm sorry it took so long, I'll try and update quicker from now on!(: Xx