Save Me

Chapter Twelve

I stood there, just starring at the door for about 20minutes before finally going inside. It was about 2:30am and Calum was sleeping on the couch, I quietly made my way to our room and set my bag down before going to the bathroom. I carefully closed the bathroom door behind me, trying not to wake Calum.

I looked at myself in the mirror, i was a complete and utter mess. My hair was knotted and my makeup was all over my face. I hate him, i hate Cam so much, why would he do this to me? i just don't understand. I felt dirty, used, and abused, I thought as I turned on the shower and stripped my clothes off.

I don't even know how to feel at this moment. I just feel numb and gross. What do i tell Calum, how do i tell Calum? I was just sitting in the tub as the hot water fell down on me from the shower head.

I slowly washed my hair and body while staring blankly at the shower wall, the odd tear falling down my face. "You deserve this," "Calum won't want you anymore, he never did and he never will," was all I could here in my head.

I was in the shower for probably 40minutes before I got out and dried off. I removed the left over makeup still on my face, brushed my hair, and got dressed into my PJ's.

When I left the bathroom Calum was still sleeping. I grabbed a glass of water from the kitchen and some popcorn then headed to my room.

After getting comfy in my bed I turned on my t.v and decided to watch South Park, this is honestly my favourite show and it never fails to make me laugh.

I couldn't even eat the popcorn, thinking about food just made me feel sick right now. Who knows if I'll even sleep tonight, I think I'm just gonna stay up and watch South Park all night since it is only Saturday and I don't have school tomorrow.

After watching about 6 episodes of South Park I noticed light starting to shine in through the window, it was 6:30 already. Calum will probably be up soon and I don't know what I'm gonna say when he asks me how last night was. Just thinking about it makes me wanna die and throw up all at once, my anxiety is through the roof at the moment.

Another 7 episodes later and it's basically 10:00 and I can hear Calum walking around in the kitchen. I started to panic a little, I just stared at the door until he came in, which he did about 5 minutes later.

"Babe you're home!!!" He yelled as he jumped on the bed and gave me a hug. "I thought you were staying the night there and coming home this afternoon?" He looked a little confused but more happy than anything. "Ashley got sick so we decided to all just go home," I said with a half smile.

"When did you get home?" "Around 2, I just didn't want to wake you up." I couldn't look at him so all I did was stare at the t.v.

"I mean I'm not complaining that you let me sleep but I would have rather been in here cuddling with you" he said as he put his back against the headboard beside me and pulled me in to cuddle him. "How was your night?" He asked as he played with my hair.

Flashbacks from last night started rushing threw my mind but I wasn't ready to tell Calum yet. "It was okay, I'm just glad that I'm back here with you" I said and wrapped my arms around his torso and tried to seem as normal as possible.

"Would you like to go get some breakfast? Maybe we could hang out with the guys?" He seemed so excited to spend the day with me and his friends. "I'm still hungover from last night but if you want to go hang out with them that's fine, I was gonna see if Ashley was doing anything today anyways." I tried really hard to not sound sad but I don't think I'm doing that great of a job.

"Are you sure?" Calum asked. "I'm sure" I looked up at him with a smile, then kissed him. He cupped my face and I felt safe with him but I couldn't get cam off my mind.

Calums P.O.V

I knew there was something wrong with Alanna, I just wish she would tell me what happened last night. It seems like she wants some space though so I guess I'll go see the guys and try to talk to her about it later.

I got off the bed and started to get dressed, "I'll be home for dinner, maybe we could do a pizza/popcorn movie night?" "I'd love that" Alanna said smiling. I walked over and kissed her forehead, "I'll see you later babe." "Okay" she said quietly.

Alanna's P.O.V

Calum left and I went to my bag to grab my phone. I hadn't looked at it once since I got home. I had multiple messages from Ashley, Allison, and Cam...

Ashley- Please call me when you wake up I need to know that you're okay<3

Allison- I hope you're doing okay, you can talk to me whenever<3

Cam- Babe please call me

Cam- Alanna I'm sorry, I thought you wanted that to happen last night...

Cam- ANSWER YOUR PHONE

I decided to text back the girls and obviously not Cam

Me to Allison- Thank you for checking up on me love, I'll be fine, love you girl!

Me to Ashley- Can you come over please<3

Ashley answered me in 0.5 seconds I swear

Ashley- I'll be there in 10 with tons of ice cream and popcorn!!<3

God I love this girl.

I got up and looked in the mirror. I hardly recognized myself, I felt empty, like I didn't even have a soul left in my body. Cam took that from me and I don't know if I will ever recover.

I changed into one of Calum's sweaters and put on some shorts, then threw my hair up into a bun.

Once I was done changing I heard Ashley come in the front door, or at least I thought it was Ashley.

I walked out of my room and saw cam standing in my living room. I froze dead in my tracks, I couldn't move or speak or even think.

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