Need You Now

Chapter 17- Tears are not always a form of weakness

Kurts P.O.V

After slipping something in Noah's IV he falls asleep his chest moving up and down in a steady rhythm. "You know he didn't mean it Sam" i turn to him seeing how his eyes are all red and puffy and there are tears threatening to fall,

"The sad part is Kurt that it is. He locked the bathroom and even tried to put something in front of the door. He really didn't want to be here anymore. He used to be so happy Kurt, he used to rule the school and have his badass reputation, what happened?"

I sigh knowing Sam does know part of the answer to his question but also knowing he is serious about wanting an answer from me to get the full story. "I think he was never happy or okay. I think he was always internally struggling with life. He was always just putting a mask on so we wouldn't worry, so we would be happy and okay because we thought he was happy and okay. You guys always say I'm the best at putting the ice queen into play but its always been Noah who has been fooling us. He never talks about emotions, never explains what's going on with him how his day or week or break was, how he is feeling. He has pushed those emotions so deep and they kept piling up that they got to snug and too many were being forced away that they all exploded and made him feel them all at once."

I stop to let Sam take in that before i tell him more. He is taking this all to heart and i know how much of a brother Puck is to him, yes Noah and Finn are great pals and sorta brotherly to each other but Sam and him have a bond, a connection

Not the type of connection that people have as to click and seem to be perfect for each other in a relationship, no 1. Sam is straight 2. Sam is deeply and madly in love with Merci and 3. Puck and Sam may not be brothers by blood but more importantly they are brothers by heart and soul.

"Yeah i mean some of us could tell he was going through stuff, he came to school with bruises, he had fights with Karofsky and Azimio more often and he got aggravated easier but i think all of us surpassed it because we didn't take the time to really look into it, to really see how much he was hurting."

I look up from the floor towards Sam again and the tears that are threatening to fall have expanded his eyes are almost flooding and knowing how much Sam and Puck are alike he is trying his hardest not to cry and not to show emotion.

"Sam you can cry you know" i state to him but he just shakes his head and wipes the tears away fiercely trying to make them go away. "No there has been enough crying and i'm not gonna cry."

I stand up and walk in front of him, i take his hand as pull him. He thankfully cooperates and stands up and even though he is a bit taller then me i hug him anyways.

He hugs back but that's when he loses it. All the tears he has been trying to keep in pour out. "I can't lose him Kurt. I can't. He's like my brother. He hates me and it feels like he did die because he doesn't want to see or be around me

I hug him tighter. "Like i said before, he doesn't hate you Sam. He is going through a very rough path in his like right now and he doesn't know how to deal. He doesn't know who is there and who isn't in the long run so you have to make him see."

Sams P.O.V

I am so thankful for Kurt. He is like another brother. Maybe not as close as me and Pucksaurus but i mean we are close as normal brothers. Kurt is so kind and caring about everyone, always putting others before himself

I stop crying after a while and step back noticing i left a huge tear puddle on the shoulder of Kurt's shirt. "Sorry about your shirt." He shakes his head smiling ""don't worry about it." Kurt soon looks down at his phone and informs me he needs to go home. I nod and give a quick hug before he goes