Opposites ~ n.h (rewriting)

Chapter 11: Secretly Falling.

Niall's POV 

I walk to my car after the little talk with Luna. What could I have possibly done that made her shut me out like that? Wait, she told me it was something she just did. Why? Did someone hurt her so bad? What did the curly headed guy do to break down her walls? I sigh, getting in and driving to the all too familiar alley behind the club. The alley where Luna came stumbling in, asking for her way back to the club and also the alley where I'd kissed her only nights ago, where I'd pushed her against the wall and examined her beauty. 

"Hey there we have the Irishman!" Mike, some dealer, came up to me. "Hey man." I faked a smile as I shook his hand with mine. "I made a great deal, and I want you to drop it off." He told me, putting an arm around my shoulders and pushing me towards the other guys. I groaned. "Mike, I only came here for a line, not to handle one of your 'great' deals. I don't even have time, I have to get Liz from school in 2 hours." "Fine, then don't. Come back when you've ditched that annoying twat." He says, handing me a tiny plastic bag with some white powder. I glared at him. "Don't talk about Liz that way." Mike started to laugh. "Oh protective brother! Get a life man! It was way more fun when the brat still had parents." Now he crossed the fucking line. I grabbed him by the collar and pushed him against the nearest wall with great force. "Don't you ever open that fucking mouth of yours to speak only one fucking word about my parents, okay?" I spat in his face. He nodded, eyes big. Too bad, he should've kept his goddamn mouth shut about my fucking parents. I quickly snorted the line and sniffed a few times. Damn I should transfer to injections of heroine, so I won't be sniffing like a fucking junky anymore. Who am I kidding? I am a fucking drug addict and it won't be long until Liz will find out. 

I sit at home waiting for the 90 minutes to pass by so can get Liz from school and distract myself from my thoughts. Luna has somehow made it;s way in my mind and locked herself in there. No matter what I do, I can't get her out of my head. The way she gets angry when she wants to find out something but can't get to the answer. The way she stands on her toes when she need something off the top shelve. The way I hate seeing her all dressed up at all times. The one time I actually saw her in sweats I though she looked amazing, her oversized sweater showing how small she is. When I saw her walking in my sweater I swear my heart skipped a beat. She looked so cute, her hair slightly messy from me running my hand through it while we kissed. 

The kiss. Don't even get me started. It was absolutely perfect. I loved the way she occasionally bit my lip cheekily and how her lips were so soft like silk. Cheesy I know. The way she giggles when she's drunk and the way it gives her the confidence to say and do whatever she wants. 

Luna is imperfect in so many ways, but her personality makes up for all that. I know more about her than most people think, but I've been observing her - yes, you may even consider it stalking - for a while. Ever since I felt her stare at me when I was writing in my notebook, I've been keeping an eye on her, ready to kill some motherfucker who even dares to hurt her. I have to admit, I was jealous at how close Luna and the curly guy were. I wanted that, with her. I wanted to have my arm around her shoulder and make her face light up when she saw me. Are they together? No, Zayn told me he kissed her when he went to her place one night. Another thing that made my fist clench and my insides twist, in a bad way. 

Wait, since when am I even letting a girl in my thoughts? I haven't done that since Rose. I sigh. Tears already welling up in my eyes. "Don't go there, Niall." I whisper to myself repeatedly. If I go back to Rose then I will fall on the ground, sobbing. My head will be replaying every memory, good and bad. It was something I used to do every night, until I found cocaine. Cocaine could keep my mind off her, it would help me focus on the present and not the past. Cocaine could make me feel nice and calm, it could take away the pain, it could take away Rose. The only one cocaine couldn't take away was Luna. Luna somehow found a way to turn my world upside down and make my head spin. She made me forget about what I vowed to myself after Rose. She made me forget about the promise I had made; that I wouldn't allow myself to fall in love again, ever. Yet here I am, lost in my thoughts, lost in Luna, slowly falling for her and with every look in her eyes I feel myself fall a little further, a little deeper.

I want to be the one that can build down her walls. I want to take away her fear of getting close to me. I want her to fall in love with me the way I am falling in love with her now, slowly, falling deeper and deeper. I want to be the one that took away all the pain she had in the past, let the walls disappear once and for all and maybe, just maybe, I will let her built my walls down as hers are slowly fading. 

I just can't tell anyone. I can't let anyone know that I am slowly breaking my own rules. I can't tell them that I'm slowly falling in love again.  I will let myself fall, slowly and secretly. 

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Short chapter... If you haven't noticed they're normally around 1500-2000 words, but I didn't want to drown you in Niall's love. ITS HAPPENING, HE'S FALLING! Just dont get distracted, shit's going down. Anyways I wanted to give you a little hint about his past and why he is an addict and everything so I decided to do this chapter in Niall's POV. I just figured you didn't really know anything about Niall's life. (You will know everything in the end )

Thank you again for reading this and HELLA HOLLAND WON AGAIN they didn't play their best but they won so I'm satisfied :)  xxx