Opposites ~ n.h (rewriting)

Chapter 32: In your arms.

Luna's POV.

Tomorrow is the day. I will finally be able to wrap my arms around his strong torso again. I will be able to hear his voice and kiss his lips. I willl be able to laugh with him and I will see him play with Liz again. For an hour.

Just an hour to catch up and we'll be sent away again. I just want to stay with him. I tried eating for the past week, not wanting Niall to know how much I've been struggling. Going to uni helped a little bit for the distraction and also Harry has been here for two weekends and Louis and Eleanor step by occasionally to check on me.

Liz went back to school a day after I let her stay home. She was still very upset but I told her that playing with her friends would help so she agreed to at least try. She was fine the whole day and I finally got some rest so I could do my homework for once. I have to pass this year and my grades aren't the best. I've been skipping a lot of classes lately but fortunately Lucy is helping me to keep up with the homework.

My friends, Louis, Eleanor, Lucy and Harry, have been a great help and support. They watched Liz when I needed to make an essay or something or they'd just visit me and hug me whenever I felt alone. They helped me getting through this month. Without them, I don't know if I would've made it through. Liz wasn't easy to handle and it was hard to be on my own for the first time in 6 months.

I'm afraid to see Niall again. I'm afraid he'll look awful, dark circles under his eyes and a lot of weight lost. I don't know what to expect when I see him again. Has he been eating well or has he been the same as me? Have things changed between us from being apart for so long? One of my old friends had a boyfriend that had to go to Spain for half a year, for college and she always told me how things changed between them. Eventually they ended up splitting because they couldn't handle the distance. Is this what might have happened when I see him again? Will everything be distant and awkward?

I sigh as I make myself up for bed. My mind racing. Thinking about tomorrow, happy but mostly afraid of what will happen and what I will see. I'm afraid of his reaction to my weight loss. I tried to hard to cover it up but it doesn't work, I lost too much. I wonder how he looks after a month. I wonder how he feels.

I wonder if things have changed between us after being apart for a month, without any contact. Well, besides that one phone call, of course.

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Today's the day. Liz was jumping on my bed at 6am already, delighted to see her brother again after a month. After 10 minutes of non-stop jumping she got tired and settled in bed next to me, watching Adventure Time on Cartoon Network.

"Can we take Niall home today?" Liz asks me as soon as the cartoon ends.

"No, not yet, love. He has to stay there for a little longer but we can visit him every week if you'd like."

"I want that. Though I like staying with you too."

I smile. "I like staying with you too, darling." I kiss her head.

I leave her in the bed to watch some more TV as I make breakfast. Just two bowls of Cheerios is enough I think. I grab a towel and take the bowls with me to the bedroom.

"You're allowed to eat in my bed today but keep it clean, okay?" Liz nods and I put the towel on her lap before giving her the bowl. I sit down myself and start eating. "What are we watching?" I ask her while looking at the screen.

"Frozen." She smiles cheekily while I sigh.

"I bet you can sync everything they're saying."

"Yes. And I know all the songs." She tells me proudly.