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chapter 5: the gap in my heart

I just left with an emotionless face i didnt know how to react to it
Was i imagnating all this senario
Im really crazy or Maybe i just get the wrong house Huh yeah ofc i have mistaken
Am not crazy no.
I took my my direction to school i  checks the student list in our school
I found hes name i asked the teacher and he said that the  student  doesnt exist i i asked like every person in our class but no one know ben think he did it he made it disappear from the every person memories 
So im the only one who knows the truth 
or i just lost my mind either way im finishing what i started before he do
So after that the teacher came through me 
And said i know that ur living ur life in a hard way but its not a reason to skips classes would u like to go the school therapist ‎I was gonna say no but i said Yes cause i wanted someone to hear what this heart is storing.
It was à kind lady not far from my age 
She started to ask question about my life and stuff she asked me about what is bothering me I told about what is going around and she said am just under pressure  and its à normal thing from to create this story to get attention she said 
To not worry and that i can visit her when ever i want so i just left and get back home to my mom, you May say that i forgot to talk about mom but its just i don't see her very often she stay in her room a lot and sometimes i hear her crying and she didnt accepted the death of grandma yet
Its her mother after all and i don't know what would i do without her Ugh sorry i have got emotional for a second 
So yeah that why i don't stay at home a lot
The day after i wasn't in a mood to get back to classes so i just visited our therapist
I told her about mom and how i feel lonely and she told to me to go out and  know more people to exit my word and join the others in the real world
And she left me for minutes i got curious 
So i searched in the patient files 
And surprise surprise ben file was between them it was à normal file about hes family problem and stuff i respect privacy so i just saw the other files and i got me something that made me happier a little
3 patients with the Same story as me and what hurted me is that five people in there life have disappeared and no one believed there stories.
I hear her Coming i get back to my place immediately
Her eyes were red , she was crying
I wanted to ask her why. But I didn't
I just asked her about the 3 student  she said "  who ? Are you still inventing characters?  "
I didnt wanna tell her about the files cause i will be in big trouble for searching in students files so i kept it to my self and i just get back my self to home 
And i just kept thinking about those who lived what am gonna live I suppose 
5 people are gonna disappear from my life 
I don't know that much of people i have to stay away from everyone and it also mean am gonna disappear too and no one will remember Julia