A Cup Of Tea

Chapter Twenty-Two

1 month later

Dear Diary,

First things first....Woody and I are NOT together...Anna and Kara keep asking me this...ever since my break up with John and the fact I found comfort in Woody's arms...everyone seems to know how I feel about Woody...everyone except me. Anna says she's cool with me and Woody, but I have no idea what she's cool about with us...there is no US...and Kara doesn't like Woody...and I'm really happy about that! The past month Woody and I have gotten closer...He always finds himself in my bed cuddling with me or talking to my stomach...and sometimes kissing it. My stomach is a lot more round now...I'm 17 weeks. I can feel the baby kick...a lot. Woody and I sing to the baby every night before Woody leaves. We sing Baby It's Cold Outside since it's the only duet we both know all the lyrics to. Don't judge us. Woody hasn't kissed me since that night a month ago, but I'm not complaining...or am I? I mean the kiss wasn't...awful...it was...nice. OK who am I kidding...it was amazing, but my feelings for Woody are complicated! It wasn't like this with John...I knew exactly how I felt with John...I love- I mean LOVED him....loved as in past tense...and I honestly mean that. John and I are done...we only speak when he picks me up for my doctor's appointments and when we're watching the ultrasounds...other than that...he's quiet as a mouse. He doesn't even text me to see how I'm feeling. I do question his true feelings for me every now and then...did he ever really love me? What exactly is love anyways? I say I love a lot of people, but do I actually love them? I'm halfway through my pregnancy...and I couldn't be happier...and when I say happy...I mean happy...besides the cravings, mood swings, nausea, weak bladder, and bad gas....I have that pregnancy glow...well...so I'm told, but the hard things have yet to come. The baby name list has gotten smaller by the way..

GIRLS:

Olivia

Armenia

Jamie

Rose

BOYS:

Noah

Tucker

Johnathan Jr.

Woody ;)

I applauded Woody for sneaking his name on the list, but I will never name my baby Woody, because I'm having a girl. I can feel it in my bones and tomorrow John and I are going to find out. The doctor will be able to determine the baby's gender and I NEED to know so I can hint it to the one's buying me baby shower gifts. Also...John's praying for a boy so I hope he never gets what he wants...at least not from me...EVER AGAIN!