First Love || Yoongi X Reader FF

14

For the rest of the day, you worked on your music, and managed to edit, revise, and finish the whole piece by 8:47. You sighed to yourself and went downstairs to the kitchen to eat some dinner, before going to sleep.
  You woke up that morning, and got ready to visit Yoongi. You packed your things into your bag and left for the hospital around 12:30, and walked over to the front desk. Luckily, she  remembered you from the previous day and let you go upstairs even though your name wasn't on the list. You happily walked down the hallway, excited to see what Yoongi would think of your now finished piece. You entered the elevator and took it up to his room, then, you knocked on the door and awaited for an answer, but there was nothing.
"Maybe he's sleeping..." you mumbled as you slid the door open quietly. When you did, you made immediate eye contact with his mother, who had tears stuck in her eyes.
"Hello Y/N." She greeted quickly wiping her face.
"Hello Mrs.Min.. is everything okay?" You questioned looking back at Yoongi, who averted his gaze to the ground.
"Mhm, everything's fine. I have to go but have a good day dear." She smiled patting your shoulder before leaving.
"Is she okay?" You questioned walking into the room. Yoongi looked up at you with his cold eyes and shrugged his shoulders. "Possibly, but most likely not. Anyways, what's up Y/N?"
You frowned and sat next to Yoongi, pulling out your folder and showing him your work.
"Look, I finished the piece." You boasted happily smiling at him. You laid the folder on his lap and watched as his eyes read the notes.
"Y/N..."
"I know, it's pretty great right? I spent a lot of time doing this you know."
"Y/N-"
"Don't worry, when you get better I might just let you play with me-"
"Y/N!" He yelled a little louder, pushing the music off of his bed. Your smile faded as you looked into Yoongi's lifeless eyes.
"What's the matter Yoongi..?" You questioned.
"There is no when I get better Y/N. I don't want to fight anymore, I've lost my will power." He explained. You felt your heart stop at his words.

He really doesn't want to live anymore?

You felt your eyes tear up.
"But-"
"I'll be fine Y/N, I'll be okay trust me. Okay? I'll be - I'll be fine-"
"Yea you'll be fine. But what about your mother? About Holly, about your friends?!" You interrupted
"Y/N-"
"What about me? What happens to me when you step into the light?!" You yelled as you stood up from his bed as tears ran down your cheeks. Yoongi's cold stare had broke at the sight of you crying.
"I know I'm being selfish but what about me? About everyone you're leaving behind, what happens to us?!"
Yoongi stood silent as his eyes watered up a little bit.
"Y/N I'm sorry it's just...I-I can't do it.. I can't fight anymore." He mumbled softly.
"So don't fight by yourself, we're all here, I'm, here. Yoongi please.." you pleaded. "Please fight a little longer, get the transplant.." you whispered, choking on your own words.
"Y/N...." he mumbled again, probably going to tell you the same thing. You scoffed and shook your head at him in disbelief.
"If you don't do this then I'll never forgive you.."
Yoongi furrowed his eyebrows together as he looked at you. "For dying...?"
"No, for making me love you!"
You blurted out, as more tears ran down your face. The tears Yoongi had been holding in had all released, running down his cheeks like a waterfall. You clenched your fists and looked down at the tiled floor that laid beneath your feet. Yoongi got out of bed and walked up to you, lifting your head so you could face him. Without a word, he wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you into an embrace. Your arms lifted around his torso, pulling him closer to you, his faint sobbing and sniffles muffled by the fabric of your shirt.
"I'll do it..." he whispered frailly through cries. "I'll do it Y/N.." he repeated. You nodded your head and cried in his arms, rubbing his back lightly.
*
For a while, you had laid with Yoongi on his bed in his arms, slowly drifting off to sleep, when he suddenly he broke the silence between your two.
"I love you too." He whispered. Your eyes jolted open, and you were suddenly wide awake. You turned your flushed face toward him, and saw him softly giggling at your expression.
"You know, for the longest time my mom told me that I would find someone who would make my life a lot happier. Someone that would make colors brighter, and for the longest time, I could only see things in monotone. Black and white, just like the keys on a piano...but then I met you, and I've seen colors I never knew existed. Regardless if you were with Jungkook or not."
You stared at Yoongi with wide eyes and a deep red face at what he had told you. Yoongi chuckled at you again and raised his eyebrows.
"Who would've known my first love would look like shrek." He joked.
Your jaw dropped at his sudden insult, and by reflex you picked up a pillow and almost hit him with it, but stopped when you realized what he had said.

His first love...?

Your eyes sparkled with Yoongi's almost in unison. Your eyes slowly traveled down his face and to his lips, and you found yourself leaning toward him. Yoongi did the same, and when your lips moved together in unison, you felt your heart explode. Forget butterflies, it was the whole zoo. Nature itself seemed to be growing from what you felt right then and there. He slowly pulled away from you and smiled, gripping onto your warm hands.
"It's getting late, you should get home. I'll tell my mom I'll fight, so don't worry about me." He whispered. You narrowed your eyes at him and smiled before getting off the bed.
"I'll see you tomorrow Y/N?"
You chuckled and grabbed your things.
"I'll come after school."
Yoongi smiled and waved at you as you left the hospital, and you walked home, with a grin from ear to ear.

When you got home, you put down your things and took a hot shower before eating dinner.
"Y/N!" Your mom called out from the living room. "Your phone is ringing!"
"I'm coming!" You shouted as you walked over to the coffee table where you left your phone. You picked up and plopped onto the couch.
"Hello?"
"Hey, Y/N?"
"Yoongi? Is this you?"
"Yea, uh. We found a match and I won't have to fight much longer...I'm getting the transplant in three days." He informed you.
"Yoongi really?! That's great!" You smiled widely. Yoongi chuckled lowly through the phone.
"Yea, it is. I have to get back to bed but I'll see you soon okay?"
"Okay, bye Yoongi."
"Later Y/N."

You hung up your phone smiling like a dork, and turned your head over your shoulder to see your mom with a dumb grin on her face.
"Yoongi? Is that one of the boys you were talking about?" She questioned as she sat next to you. You nodded your head and scooted next to your mother, putting your head on her shoulder.
"I chose today mom, and I think....no, I know I made the right choice." You whispered clasping your hands together. She kissed your forehead and smiled at you.
"I'm proud of you Y/N, so very proud."
You chuckled and kissed your moms cheek before standing up. "Thank you. I'm going to bed mom, I'll see you tomorrow."
She waved and watched as you walked up the stairs and to your bedroom. You closed your bedroom door and laid down, eventually falling asleep.

A/N:

Emotional chapter today. Sorry 🤧