I'll Stay Me

Chapter Four

Hank's POV

I look around at everyone, no one saying anything, just staring at one another. I look over at Luke and see the fear all over his face. I lean over and rub his back softly.
"Someone please say something." Luke says.
"Um, can I just say that I really love your son." I say with tears in my eyes, afraid I may lose him.
"Luke, we have to tell you something." LeClaire says as she touches Tommy's hand.
"What? Did you always know I was gay or something?" He asks and laughs a little.
"Luke, we didn't tell you this to protect you. Luke, you're intersex. You have both female and male hormones. You have both female and male reproductive systems. You have a penis and a vagina." LeClaire tells him.
"You can get pregnant, that's why I didn't want you with Hank." Chris says.
"You've slept with him?" Luke's father asks.
"Yes sir." He replies, looking down.
"He's been really sick since they did too." Chris admits.
"Shit." Tommy says under his breath.
" Luke you need to come with me" LeClaire saids walking out of the dining room. Luke got up leaving his siblings and father alone with me.

Luke's POV

I follow Mama upstairs to her bedroom, she sat down on the bed and gestured me to sit down with her, so I did. " Luke please tell me you are still a virgin and if you aren't please tell me it wasn't with Hank." Mama said looking concerned.
" Mama I'm not gonna lie to you, but no I'm not a virgin anymore. The first night we were in Nashville I snuck out after Chris was asleep and Hank and I had sex." I said beginning to cry because how disappointed I was at the moment.
"Luke go to the hall bathroom and look under the sink for one of Kelly's pregnancy tests and use it. Come back in here when your done with the test." Mama said a bit angry and upset.
"I took it." I say as I walk back in with the test wrapped in toilet paper.
"What does it say?" She asks with concern in her voice.
"I don't know. I haven't looked. Mama I'm scared." I say as I begin to cry.
"You should be. Luke even if you couldn't have gotten pregnant, you shouldn't be having sex at 17. You could've gotten an STD, especially from him." She says.
"What do you mean especially from him?! You don't know shit about him!" I yell.
"Thomas Luther watch your language!" She yells back at me. I sit down on the bed and begin sobbing. "Well, get ready to be a teenage parent."
"Mom, I'm sorry. I know I disappointed you." I say as I put my head in my hands.
"Hold your head up and let's go finish dinner." She says.
  "You okay buddy?" Kelly asks as we walk back in. I nod my head. Hank rubs my thigh as I sit back down.
  "Luke you need to eat." Dad says.
"I'm not really hungry dad." I reply as I sit back.

Everyone finally finished dinner, I barely ate a thing. I got up to take everyone's plates and wash them.
"Luke, I'll get dinner cleaned up. Why don't you go upstairs." Mama said taking the plates from my hand. I obey and walk upstairs to my room. I lay on my bed and begin crying.
  "Luke, we need to talk. Your mother has Hank occupied in the kitchen." Dad says as he comes in my room. I sit up and look at him.
  "Daddy, please don't hate me. I'm pregnant, with Hank's baby. I-I snuck out one night in Nashville and we had sex, I lost my virginity to him," I say, still sobbing. Dad sighs and looks down.
  "We should've told you sooner, your mother thought it would be better to hide it from you." He says. He opens his arms and pulls me over into a hug. I just let it all out.
  "Are you going to keep it?" Kelly chimes in from the door.
  "Yes. I'm not killing my child." I say.
  "When are you going to tell Hank?" Daddy asks.
  "I don't know, I guess tonight." I reply.
"Tell me what?" Hank asks as he walks in the room.
"Hank, babe, I'm- I'm- I can't do this." I say as I run out of the room and downstairs then outside. I sit on the porch steps and cry. I begin hyperventilating.
"Luke come here." Hank says as he pulls me into him and holds me tightly.
"I'm pregnant." I manage to choke out.
"I know. Your mama told me."
"Are you going to leave?" I ask, looking up at him. He kissed my forehead and hugs me tightly.
"I'm not going anywhere, ever." He says.
Later that night Hank and I are laying in my bed all cuddled up
"Baby, I'm going to Montana for a hunting trip later this week. Do you want to come?" Hank asks as he rubs my back.
"I don't think I can, I have school." I say with disappointment.
"Okay honey, do you want me to stay? I will if you need me."
"No, Hank, go have fun on your hunting trip." I assure him. I nuzzle my head into his chest and slowly begin to fall asleep. I can't believe all this is happening.