Tue, March 13, 11:41 AM
🍃: Are you okay?
💔: No
🍃: Listen to the playlist dud
Sun, March 4, 2:10 PM
💔: I love you
🍃: Why?
💔: You're smart
And kind
And funny
And cute
🍃:All wrong
💔: All understatements
🍃: No
💔: You know i'm not gunna stand down
You may not see what I do
But I see someone I love
🍃: Nope
💔: Again, you don't see what I do
I don't care what you see
🍃: I see nothing
I'm blind
Sun, March 4, 10:17 AM
🍃: I don't want to have to take something to be happy... I should just be happy
But i'm not.. so i've kinda almost got use to it okay?
Those random little times where i'm not okay and i'm seriously thinking about suicide I just call the 11:55s cause they usually happen at night..
I'm so use to it i've given it a name
💔: Are you going to kill yourself?
🍃: I don't know... if it gets that bad the maybe
💔: You'd destroy me
I'd be nothing if you died
🍃: I know I know I know, but when i'm in that '11:55' state.... I don't think about that
💔: Then try to
Write it down somewhere
Just my name
And look at it whenever you start thinking
🍃: I don't know when it happens exactly and it doesn't happen every single night and I don't have actual control over myself when it does
I hope i'm testing out the beta version of my life
💔: I'm sorry
🍃: For what
💔: That you're like this
And that i'm a dick about it
🍃: It's alright
You're just trying to help
💔: Eh :/
🍃: I'm okay now
Wow I hate my mood swings
They are...... off the chart
You'd be nothing if I died huh?
Lemme prove my point that you're wrong
