6-2/18 11:38 (night)
The more I talk about it, the more I dread it. Insomnia is something i've had to deal with a long time. Insomnia can be caused by lots of things like stress, depression, and all that fun stuff. Mine isn't as bad as others but sleep... just doesn't seem to be in my vocabulary. You see we are enemies as they tend to create these hallucinations. Making me feel absolutely crazy. I mean come on who sees a 7 foot tall bunny rabbit, a 6 year old boy, some preppy teen girl, or a masked man behind it all? Nothing about that is normal. Insomnia seems to also make people emotional. So crying is a big factor with insomnia. It's like a way for your insomnia to vent out. Like 'WHY THE FUCK CAN'T I SLEEP?'.. so you start to overthink everything. I heard insomniacs are more creative. I believe it because I tend to not have a filtered mind process when I feel all those feelings of tiredness at night and I can't do anything about it. Overthinkers.... I know it may not seem like it.. but I am really fucking tired! No one seems to understand that. I toss and turn all night long, I have those terrible terrible cry worthy nightmares, I wake up several times in the night, I'm always tired during the day but when it comes to bedtime ENERGY ENERGY ENERGY, and my favourite of them all... I don't think about what I say and say the truth to people and regret it in the morning. I hurt people at night. It's not even the 11:55. No it's not the time and place for that. Because I hate hurting people. It happens anyways.. Overthinkers...I don't feel well.. I see a face appearing. Who knows who it's gunna this time. Scribbles? Lovlet? Cindy? Mr.Lightbright? I don't know. I just have to wait. Even if the time doesn't change.
