7-10/18 1:35 (night)
What the fuck is love? Seriously. From my countless days on the couch just watching old romance movies I've learned it comes with danger. From the new romance movies I've learned it comes with heartbreak first to discover it. That's plain stupid don't you think? Why hurt to feel something that's gunna hurt more along the way. "It's for the time when it all feels so right" When does something really feel right if it isn't wrong. I'm not saying to take this is in different ways but.. Love is fucking stupid. Yes I may feel things for certain people but it isn't love anymore.. I make mistakes.. all the time and my biggest 3 mistakes were falling in love with the wrong people. 2 of them were majorly toxic that naturally give off a bad vibe. From my perspective of course.. they may seem innocent, but so did grandma till a fox jumped out and tried to eat little red riding hood. The other is still a pleasant person in my life and I do regret falling in love with them thinking they were my other half just to have them break my heart and go back to their ex. But that was 3 years ago so I need to let it go. I tricked you didn't I, dollface? I don't need that overwhelming feeling in my heart that I need to give all my attention to this person for I can't do that. No one deserves me, not because i'm too great or too bad but just because I don't deserve the truth with love. It's torturous rollercoaster. They will never understand you. No one will. No one has any idea what you are thinking so why say they are perfect for you when there is always something to hate about them. Fuck you, if you ever thought I needed you. I don't because like I've said before.. you need food and water and let's not forget fresh oxygen. People are people they come and go, the live and die. We all die. Accept that. We all fucking die. No way to escape death. Also, love dies too.. it can die very quickly or after a long period of time. So! Mine... mine.. mine... This letter is to you telling you I do not love you, I trust you. But then again.... Trust is not needing, caring, and most importantly loving.
