Love Me! If That's What You Do.

Cheat

"Are you cheating on me?"

In that very moment, as I asked, his face turn white, as if he saw a ghost or something.

"L-love, I swear I-" he stuttered.

"Just tell me the truth Gavin. Please." I begged with him. So many thoughts run through my mind. My body tells me that my suspicions are correct, and it's making it feel like the world is crumbing around me. I could see his skin start to glisten and he couldn't look at me in the eyes.

"I promise you, nothing happened! I didn't do anything!"

As that left his mouth, my mind had that small ounce of hope, to being immediately crushed due to reality setting in. My boyfriend cheated on me while he was drunk, knowing what he did, and continues to try lying about it.

I shook my head, tears on the brink of spilling out, and onto my face. I wiped my eyes, trying to force away the emotion and sob that wanted to escape.

"I know you're lying Gavin. I bet I know exactly what happened." I said, defeated. At that point he had gotten off the couch, pacing back and forth with his hands over his face, obviously distraught. He paused to look at me, both of our faces red and puffy. He quickly moved to sit back on the couch next to me, attempting to hold my hands but I pulled away.

"Please forgive me, I never wanted to hurt you."

"If you didn't want to hurt me then you should've thought about me before messing around with another woman!" I cried.

Silence filled the room, making the tension between us much greater. Neither of us know what to say right now.

"I-I still love you Cammi." Gavin sobbed. I took a very deep breath, trying to collect my thoughts.

"I'm sorry, but I just can't look at you right now. Please, just- just leave." I say just crushed. This must be a bad dream but if I pinch myself I know that this really happened. I don't even know how to feel. I mainly feel upset, but also angry and confused.

"I'm sorry Cameron. Please tell me something though. Is it over between us?"

Should it be? I still love him but what trust do I have in him? He lied about going out, cheated on me, and then tried to lie about that too. Would he seriously react this way if he didn't care though? I've never seen a man get this emotional, especially over a relationship. I wiped my face and built up the courage to speak.

"Look, I love you, but how can I trust you after all this?"

"Please, just believe me. It's completely up to you, if you don't want to be with me I understand, or-"

I stopped him while he was in the middle of his sentence. "I don't know if I want things to be over, I just need some time for myself. I can't wrap my head around this, but I want to be able to trust you. You have to prove yourself."

Some color returned to his face, an a slight smile appeared. He went to hug me, but again, I pulled away. "I'm still upset with you." I said and he nodded, showing he understood.

I got up off the couch and left Gavin behind. We were very late to work so I rushed to get ready. I tired my best to cover up the bags under my eyes, and my red nose with my makeup and let my faded hair fall from my bun. I got up from my chair and went to my closet picking out a white tank top, a gray cardigan, jeans, and gray converse.

Throwing that on, I search around my apartment, expecting Gavin to be waiting for me to leave so he can get dressed and leave. However, I found my apartment to be empty, not a single sound to be heard. Only my breathing, and the passing cars outside the building can be heard through the silence.

I took a deep breath, the air coming out shaky. I grabbed my keys and phone, walked out of my home, and immediately went to Ray and Tina's. I calmly knock on the door, waiting patiently for a reply. The door creeks open as I see Tina behind the door.

"Hey Cammi, what happened? Gavin asked if Ray could bring him to work and he seemed pretty upset." she asked, curiosity present on her face and in her voice.

I held back my emotions to calmly speak and not break down to tears. "Gavin...cheated on me last night. He wouldn't tell me the truth when I first questioned him, but I had found a phone number in his jeans pocket after he came home drunk, with a hickey on his neck. After that, he couldn't deny it." I said, picking at my nails. Tina said nothing but walked up to me trapping hugged me.

Tears fall from my eyes and onto Tina's shoulder. I pull away, wiping my face and apologizing plenty of times. She simply shakes her head. "I'm sorry Cammi, dear. He's such an dumbass" she said, causing us to crack a smile but sigh. She thought for a second and grabbed my hands.

"What if we had a girls night? Kick Ray out and we can do whatever you want. How does that sound?" she said with excitement, turning my slight frown into a full smile. "Of course, I'd love to".

"Yay! It's a date" she said winking, causing me to roll my eyes and laugh.

I started walking away, yelling my goodbye like I normally do when I leave that apartment, Tina doing the same. I turn towards my car, get in it, and rest my head on the steering wheel. How did my life turn in a complete 180?

I turned on my car, since now I'm very late, and rush to the office. I texted Geoff before leaving, apologizing for my tardiness. I set my phone down and let my music blast throughout my car. I drive away from all the chaos I have just endured, to now suffer the awkwardness that is about to come.

My mind was empty has I drive to work. I felt numb. Confused. Just overall emotional.

I ask myself questions like "What did I do wrong?", or "What could I have done?" my whole car ride.

I felt the heat in my face and the tears to my eyes form. God Cammi, stop getting so emotional about this. You've talked about it and made your choice. Was it the right one though?

With that on my mind, I pulled into my usual parking spot. I look into the mirror one last time and fixed up my hair. I got out of the car and seen that the madness of AHWU had already started since I see Jeremy, Michael, and Ryan running outside to set something off in the parking lot. I walk a bit faster to catch up to the boys and instantly have a camera in my face.

"Look who finally showed up to work!" Michael yelled. I rolled my eyes, giving off a chuckle. They all continue to pester me about being late and they couldn't film, but I'd rather avoid going in there.

We all walk in after their little stunt and, once again, my heart drops into my chest. Is it bad that I don't want to go into the office? I know he's going to be in there and just seeing him is going to be rough. Cammi, you have to keep your head high and act like everything is okay.

Ryan is the first to the office door and holds it open for everyone, but as I try to walk through the door, he pulls me off to the side a bit.

"You okay?" he asks.

I can't lie to him, but I don't want to tell him the truth. "Sorta. I'll be okay."

I try to get out of his grip but he holds me there to say something else.

"How about for lunch we go somewhere and just talk. I know there's more going on." he says as he lets me go and looks me in the eyes. I gave a face and he shook his head. I groaned and whispered "Fine. I guess." causing him to smile and proceed into the room.

Well, this is going to be interesting.

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*Quietly sneaks back onto here and finishes a chapter like nothing happened* (Shit will go down soon, let's just hope I write it ;))

-Amanda