Love Me! If That's What You Do.

Everything

The Next Day

I ended up talking to Ryan for the rest of his stream and an hour after that. Both my fans and his fans were still buzzing about how we should play a game together. After his stream it was just bullshitting and laughs between us two. It was nice for once.

This morning was the opposite. I had him nagging me all morning. Then I every object in my house wanted to go against me and not work, making me late for work being technically my first day. I practically rush out of my house half ready and into my car, almost forgetting to close my front door.

I sped all the way to work. What made it better was accidentally taking 7 wrong turns. Fucking 7 wrong turns. Great.

Finally I pull into the parking lot. I let out a breath I was holding in and get out of my car. I run all the way to the office door and pull it open with all the little strength I've got. I try to remember my way through the office going through hallways and door till I found the door with a creeper on it.

When I walked in everyone was still setting up. I wiped the sweat off my forehead and went to sit on the couch. Geoff looked at me and shook his head. I raised my eyebrow and he pointed to the empty desk next sideways to both Geoff and Jeremy. Both my eyes and smile widened when I zipped to the nice sized desk.

I set down my bag beside my chair and sat down. While my computer and xbox were booting up another person, who was clearly much later than I, walked in. My eyes were locked down onto my phone when I was interrupted by someone kicking my foot.

"Dude what the fuck." I said and looked up to see Ryan. "What was that for asshole?"

He simply shrugged his shoulders and walked away. I slightly scoffed, loud enough for only him to hear, and he chuckled.

The rest of the guys then sat down and we were preparing for our very first let's play of the day.

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I clicked the stop button on my recording, then immediately throwing off my headphones. I stood up and stretched my aching back.

"Fuck my ass hurts from sitting so damn long." Michael said as he stopped his recording. "Well guys you get a longer lunch break so appreciate that." Geoff said shaking his head and adding a laugh.

I again started playing on my phone when I felt a tap on my shoulder. When I looked up I seen Gavin standing a few inches in front of me. I slightly leaned back, bringing my face away from his more. "Hey Cam, Micool, Lil J, Ryan and I were gonna go get some pizza. You wanna join us?"

I thought for a second. I'm normally by myself when lunch time comes.

"Yeah sure. Sounds like fun."

His face lit up when I agreed and he almost started pulling me by my wrist to the car. I turned to quickly grab my bag when I spotted Ryan with an angry face. It didn't connect in my mind since I had a person tugging at my arm. Gavin pulled me the rest of the way, out of the office and to the car.

Ryan made his way in front of everyone with his keys in his hands. Guess this is his car then.

He unlocks the doors and everyone gets in. Ryan driving, Michael in the passengers seat, then me, Gavin, and Jeremy smushed in the back. I was starting to feel claustrophobic as we started driving. I heard him once again.

"What the fuck do you think you're doing? You hate being in tight spaces. Just get out of the car right now. You see all that quickly passing by? Yeah that's you're space."

I squeezed my eyes shut and held on to the door as tightly as I could with one hand. I'm not gonna let all these guys know how fucked up I am. It never works out well.

"Well you gonna do it or not, you little bitch."

"Stop just stop. Please just stopped" I whispered, hoping no one heard me.

I felt my breath hitched and leaned my head back. I opened my eyes and tried to focus on the celling of the car. I made sure to take deep breaths until I finally calmed down.

"You're an absolute dumbass Cameron."

When I looked straight I seen Ryan looking at me through the mirror while everyone else was distracted, talking to each other. Fuck he saw me go through my attack. He better not question anything.

We finally got to the little pizza shop and everyone got out. I took another deep breath but this time it was fresh air that made me feel better.

Ryan locked his car and then the guys and I proceeded to the door. Jeremy holding it open for everyone I thanked him and he returned it with a smile. Ryan asked for a table and the cute little waitress lead us to one by the window.

She sat us down and gave us all menus to look over. "Anyone want anything to drink?" her perky attitude showing. A lot.

While the "lads" as they called themselves got a beer, Ryan and I only got a water.

I looked over the menu, not even seeing Ryan scoot closer to me. "Have you ever been here before? The pizza is amazing". I shook my head and kept skimming the page. Everyone just agreed to get a pie but I made sure they also got mozzarella sticks.

The the perky girl came back with all of the drinks and we told her our order. Random bullshitting was going on at the table while I fiddled with my fingers. I'm still feeling the effects of the attack. Ray normally knows how to calm me down and I'd feel nothing after but I haven't dealt with it by myself in a while. I still laughed along with the conversation, trying not to make my situation too obvious.

After time had passed we got our food and dogged it. Who would've thought after hours of recording we'd all be so hungry.

"Okay now I'm stuffed. I also don't want to move" I whimpered. The rest of them laughed and Ryan put some money on the table for the tip since we already paid.

We all stood up and exited the building. As we were headed back to go to the office, Ryan pulled my arm back towards him and waited a second till the rest of them got a little farther. He then looked at me in the eye with concern.

"What was happening to you back in the car?"

Fuck he saw everything.

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If this sucks i'm sorry I wrote this in study hall with writers block :)

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-Amanda