Maybe this is from Kristy, with her apology… I thought.
I ripped open the seal and began to read the letter.
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To My Dearest Avary Rose,
If your reading this you know I’m not here, the thought of leaving you, Haylee and your father sickens me, but it had to be done.
Long ago, someone threatened me.
Someone I cannot say or else danger towards you may persist.
But sweet pea, its taken care of now…
I knew a secret, long ago I saw something happen and was threatened to death if I told anyone.
It had been sixteen years and I thought this person might have forgotten about this, so I told Amanda on camp and somehow he found out.
I am writing this in front of him, where Amanda and I are about to be killed.
Apparently, we have to be killed because if Amanda or I had let this secret go to anyone else it would crawl itself to the police.
Honey, I love you.
Make mother proud, live your life to the fullest like mother would.
Take care of Haylee because I know your father would get a little weak at times without me here…Haylee needs you, don’t avoid her. There are many things she still needs to learn and I want you to be there to teach her, you’re the closest thing she has to a mother because your just like me.
She is your little sister, you two need to stick together.
I wish you the best for your future, make the right decisions and you’ll be right sweet pea.
Don’t weigh yourself down because I’m not here, honey I’ll be watching you from above smiling, because I know you will make the right choices in life because you’re a fighter, like me.
Stick with father, I know he won’t be able to provide by himself so he will probably find a new lady.
But no, she wont be the same as me honey, she wont know my secret Christmas feast recipe, she wont know how to be me.
Simply because she wont be me…
In the pocket of the sleeping bag case, I have left you a few pictures, of us, of our family, the many great memories we’ve shared and I am so upset that I have to pass like this.
And to think of how many more memories we could of shared.
In there I have also left you my card, which I have left money for emergencies only.
You shouldn’t have to use it all before you are eighteen, but if needed go ahead.
If there is any left over when you are eighteen, put that towards a car, a house or university!
I don’t know if father had told you but the Christmas after I have passed we were planning to take you girls to England, to see the snow like you’ve always wished.
I wouldn’t know, but maybe he has already taken you there, if he has I sure hope you enjoyed it.
Hope everything is going well with school, make sure if you need extra help ask your teachers… because fathers not the best at ‘teaching’ and I’m not here to help.
I’m in tears at the moment, as I know my death is waiting.
Make mother proud sweet heart, stay strong!
I love you little chicken,
Mother
Sending you an eternity of hugs and kisses
xoxoxoxoxoxox
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