Abscond

Chapter 8

Elaiza's POV

I feel so tired and I badly want to sleep early today. Nakakapagod masyado kasi halos sunod-sunod ang reportings at presentation kanina.

Mula sa pagkakaupo ko sa kama ay naisipan ko ulit magsulat ng kung ano sa notebook ko. Sa totoo lang,hindi ko alam kung ano ang itatawag ko sa kwadernong ito. Hindi ko naman sya diary pero parang ganoon na nga. Hahaha. Basta magulo masyado. Ang alam ko lang,hindi ako mabubuhay kapag wala ito sa tabi ko.

Dahil wala naman akong magawa ngayon,naisipan kong magsulat na lang ng kung ano. Pagtitripan ko na lang ang pangalan ko ngayon.

"Elegantly inside,simple girl outside.

Loves to explore new things,but sometimes,

Afraid to spread her own wings.

I am smart,approachable and kind according to them,but what is this I'm feeling? I feel so...useless.

Zap! Don't think of that negative thoughts,just clear and relax your mind.

Another day is waiting for me. A day of happiness,sadness and challenges. How am I going to face it?

Most people envy how perfect my life is.

Almost all of them thinks that I don't have problems,that I'm always happy. But...am I?

Rich? Yeah,we're kinda. But having a lot of money doesn't mean that the one whose holding it is always happy. So,what's the sense?

The life isn't fair but the people. I believe in that.

How to describe myself anyways? I think I'm so dumb. I don't even know what I'm talking about right now.

"Ela,I envy you. You're so rich!" "I want to be you. Such a lucky girl." "Elaiza Marthena? The only daughter of the Aexilez's? Wow~ she looks perfect!" They can describe and say anything positive to me. But,why is it so hard to tell positive things to myself?

Nah. I must be really out of my mind. I'll just sit here,emote,write,wait,and see 'coz eventhough I'm full of negativity, there's a little hope in my system saying...

Adorable and unique personality is running within me."

Napatawa na lang ako sa mga pinagsusulat ko sa notebook ko. Tss. Ganyan talaga kapag walang magawa,kung saan saan nakakaabot ang imahinasyon.

Napabuntong hininga na lang ako sa isiping malapit na ang prom. I don't know why am I so nervous. Ayokong umattend pero ayaw ko ring madisappoint na naman sa akin si Mommy. You know, I'm their only daughter at ini-expect nila na aattend ako sa gabing iyon. Hindi ko alam kung para saan pa. Makakatulog lang naman ako doon.

"Ela? Baba ka na raw,kakain na." Rinig kong sabi ni Manang Lyn sa labas ng kwarto ko.

"Opo,bababa na po." Maikling sagot ko at niligpit lang ang mga gamit ko sa kama at saka lumabas. Nakakamiss din palang makasabay sila sa dinner. Well,kung ako ang tatanungin,mas gusto ko lagi ang mag-isa pero okay din naman minsan na magkaroon ng kasama.