STARGAZER

CHAPTER 5: STARGAZER

I burst through the door. "BEATRICE YOU IN HERE?" Oh my gosh where is she. She's not in the hotel.

"She's gotta be around here." Niall said looking at the empty bottle of wine on the floor and laughed to himself. 

"I'm going to check your room." I said, storming out and up the stairs too impatient to use the elevator. I didn't even look at the security guards, I just walked in. Louis, Zayn, and Liam were laying on the couch watching normal TV. I took the tv remote and shut it off. 

"Hey! A good part was coming on!" Liam said pouting his bottom lip out. 

"Guys, have you seen my friend Beatrice. You guys were with her down at the water today. And I can't find her." Louis smiled evilly. 

"You mean the Beatrice who is in Harrys room right now? Yeah we know her." I stopped panicking after he said that. But did she really need to get with Harry..

"Okay." I said turning the show back on for them. They were in a trance watching the screen. I walked down the hall to the only room that had it's door shut and put my ear up to it. I didn't hear anything, maybe I shouldn't interrupt. I walked to Niall who was in the kitchen. He grabbed my hand which was clammy from being nervous and pulled me outside the room and up to the roof. 

I stood there under the stars that were bright and twinkling more than ever. I felt his body hugging me from behind. 

"Can we finish our conversation." He whispered into my ear. I turned around and saw his face serious. 

"Yeah, I guess we can." I whispered back.

"I really like you Sophia. And It'd be lovely if we could stay under these stars forever and I could just be in your arms. Because whenever i'm near you I feel like I can do anything. I feel like no matter what happens to me you'll always be there to cheer me up and make me happy. And I feel like I can be myself with you. And I just.. You're different than the other girls. You understand me, you're intelligent, and funny. And you're every trait I could think of. I've been with so many other girls and I can tell you right now, you are so much different then them. Those other girls were just temporary, but I think we could actually make something of this." He stopped and looked up.

"Ask me what I think when I look at the stars." He said.

I sighed. "What do you think when you look at the stars?" 

He looked into my eyes, "Right now? I see you. And only you. And now when I look at the stars you're the only thing i'll ever see because I think i'm falling for you. And let me tell you.. i'm falling hard." He looked back down at me. 

He was speaking from the heart. I can't help but feel the same way for him because he's just that kind of guy. I think i'm falling in love with him.

"Niall. You're on tour." I replied in a sad tone.

"I know I am. And I can make the work. We can make this work." He sounded so sincere. "Sophia. Be my girlfriend. Please?" When he said please his voice cracked like he wanted me so badly. He wanted everything about me and how could a girl say no when a boy you like is begging?

"I'll be your girlfriend under one condition." I replied. 

"And what's that?"

"If I let you in, you'll never push me out." I whispered.

He pulled his ipod out of his pocket and put on some classical music. He placed his hand in mine and the other on my hip and started swaying with me back and forth. 2 minutes later her replied to what I said.

"I'll never push you out. Ever." I put my head in the crook of his neck smelling his cologne. His scent was warm and smelled like in the autumn when you jumped into the pile of leaves. The song ended and he pulled away putting his hand on my now wet cheeks.

"Why are you crying?" He whispered with his facial expression pained. 

"I think i'm just happy. I've never found someone who wanted me this bad before." 

"Who wouldn't want you? You are perfect." He wiped away my tears and pushed my hair behind my ear.

"Niall. I have the biggest past. And it'll follow me forever. I'm not sure if you want to deal with it..." I trailed off.

"It doesn't matter." He said. And I trusted him.

I took his hand and we walked down back to his room. I stopped and told him to go get his pajamas on. He did so without asking. While he was gone I asked what the guards names were, they said Paul and Preston. I introduced myself properly and they pulled me into a hug. I didn't expect that. Maybe hugging was a foreign thing. Niall came out in his red plaid pants and a black shirt. He shut the door slowly probably because they boys were sleeping, I took my shoes off because they were creating burns on the back of my feet. We got down to my room and slid in. It was somewhat clean which was good. "I'll be back." I said leaving him for the bathroom. I stripped my clothing and put on my PJ shorts and a v neck. I looked in the mirror at my makeup smeared from crying. Oh wow was I a baby. I took the pad and scrubbed all my makeup. God I looked horrible. I hope he doesn't second guess our relationship when he sees me like this. I brushed my teeth and shut the light. I walked into the bedroom and looked at him. "Niall. I hope you don't mind what I look like without makeup." Smiling awkwardly at him.

"You look better, actually." He's just saying that.. I hate when guys lie like that. But maybe he's not like every other guy. Maybe he actually means it.

I turned off the light and climbed in under the sheets. We were far apart talking for a bit then he put his arms around my waist pulling me closer to him. There was no space between us. That night I fell asleep to his heart beating against my chest, hearing it thump faster then slower than fast again. 

In his arms I felt like the safest person compared to when I was with my ex. My ex... Should I really be in a relationship now? Should I really do this while I still have thoughts of that night? Should I just trust myself? I have so many questions still unanswered. Why do I keep putting them off..

UGH SORRY IT'S SHORT AGAIN. IM SO SORRY UGHH. ILL POST A LONG ONE TOMORROW!!!