STARGAZER

CHAPTER 9: STARGAZER

I got back from saying goodbye to Niall and Beatrice was sitting on her bed reading a magazine. "Hey" she said when I sat next to her. I haven't seen her in a few days because she's been hanging out with Harry so much. "Listen, I don't want you to be hurt or anything. But this magazine has said some pretty nasty things about you.." She slid it towards me and I saw the cover. It was me and Niall holding hands walking down Watch Hill. The caption said "Good for Niall? Or good for nothing?" Why would they write something like that?

I opened up the pages and read the article. It pretty much tore me up inside. 

It said "We have heard the inside scoop on Horans new girlfriend from friends of hers. They replied 'She has had some trouble in the past, I honestly think she was bulimic. And she was a freak.. Wore black all the time.' Does Niall know what he is in for?"

There were comments at the bottom of the page from twitter users. @1D4evr said "Sophia is chubby, she should loose a few pounds if you ask me!" and @NiallsEffingMofo said "She's not really that pretty. He should be mine!!" 

My eyes felt like they were bright red. 

I threw the magazine at the wall and got up to look in the full body mirror. I turned sideways and looked at my body, trying to suck in every part of me. I feel so fat. Maybe I do need to loose a few pounds...

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"We're done" Niall's text said to me. Why why would he be done with me? Tears were streaming down my face and I could barely see the letters on my tiny phone. I ran into the bathroom looking down at the blood on my wrists. The bathroom floor was flooded and then I was facing the ceiling. Red was surrounding me on the walls, in the sink..

(DAY 7)

"WAKE UP." I felt arms around me. Beatrice. I got up from my bed sweating and rubbing my eyes. I was crying. "Sophia, what's wrong." She said looking at me concerned. "Nothing.. I just. Had a bad dream that's all." 

"Um, are you sure? Do you need your meds ag-"

"No, Bea. I am fine. I don't need them.. alright?" I snapped back at her. I got out of bed and went into the shower to get ready for the airport. It was 6:00 and our flight would leave in 2 hours. I was running late so I quickly put on mascara and put my hair into a messy bun. I wore some sweats and a V neck so I could sleep more on the plane ride and be comfy. Everything was packed because yesterday Niall helped me, and everything was set to go. 

"I'll be right back Bea." I said running out the door.

I walked up the familiar 2 steps onto the roof. I looked out onto the Watch Hill view and saw the sunrise. I'm going to have to come back here with Niall again to watch the stars, even if it is only for a night. Our first kiss was only a few feet away from me. The first time I realized that I don't think I could ever let him go. He's so different than my ex. He's caring and gentle.. and he doesn't rush anything on me. Everything was perfect when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned around whacking the hand off when I noticed it was just an employee. "Hey, you know you're not supposed to be up here?" She said in an Italian accent. I said back to her in a quick voice "I know, i'm sorry. I'll leave." And I ran down the stairs holding back tears. I really am gonna miss this place. 

I pulled my bag out to the hall where we met the other campers. We walked down to the lobby and handed in all of our room keys and headed out the door. There were still paparazzi's outside which made me nervous.. Niall was gone. They were out there for me?

We all walked out and all of them were shouting my name "SOPHIA! LOOK HERE!" I couldn't help but answer to my name as the flashes burnt on my eyes. I ran as fast as I could to the tour bus and got on. Everyone on the bus was looking at me like I was some sort of crazy person. A lot of whispers were going on as I saw heads look back at me. Beatrice had the courage to come out and yell "HEY TAKE A PICTURE, IT'LL LAST LONGER!" They looked away and started with their normal activities. 

It took us an hour to get to the airport, and we only had an hour to check in with our bags. 

8:00 Sophia.. We'll be in the air. You'll see Niall soon.

Those words repeated in my head for the next hour. Beatrice and I sat down and had a bite to eat before they called out flight. We sat down on the plane and I got the window seat. I love airplanes, the feeling of lifting off the air and leaving everything behind you. Starting fresh somewhere new.

A few hours went by and we were only half way there. My pocket buzzed and I saw a text come through. It was Niall.

I'll be at the airport when you get here. I miss you xx

How I got the text from the air.. I don't know. Maybe we hit a spot where there was service. The text made me smile though, even though I wasn't in the best mood. My iPod was dying and I was sick and tired of reading so I fell asleep. 

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"The plane will be landing very soon, so please put your seatbelts on." The lady advised us at the front of the plane. The signal went on and I could feel us getting lower and lower. My stomach is flipping because i'll finally be able to see Niall. It's been almost 2 days and I couldn't wait any longer. 

I stumbled to get all my things and ran off the plane leaving everyone behind. I didn't care anymore about this stupid tour and if I got in trouble. My parents are paying for it.. I should be able to do what I want. The little hallway connecting to the airport was empty because everyone was still grabbing all of their carry ons. The opening was only a few steps in front of me, as I walked out I frantically looked for Niall in the crowds. Then I saw flashes quiet a ways back. Must be him.

"NIALL!" I yelled. He turned to to me and held his arms out with a welcoming smile. I ran a little ways and jumped into his arms. He was so warm, and I missed that. I was always so cold. He picked me up and spun me around with his arms tightly around my torso. He placed me down but still hugged me. I pulled away and put my hands on his now reddened cheeks and smushed our lips together. How could I ever be without him for more than two days? It'll really suck when we go our separate ways in 3 days..

"I missed you" he whispered in my ear. 

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"Okay everybody. Listen up." Our counsler started rambling. "We will be on floor 11 rooms 443 to 446. So everyone pick your sleeping buddy and take a room key!" She passed them out and we all went our seperate ways. 

I dropped off my things at the room and went down to Nialls. He was in the "presidential suit." Paul and Preston weren't outside so maybe they didn't have to guard this room. I knocked on it once and heard the boys yelling at eachother. not really yelling as if they were fighting.. but play yelling if that makes any sense..

Niall swung the door open and pulled me in. The boys said hello to me but I was still being pulled by Niall into his bedroom. He turned to the bed which had magazines with our faces on them. He looked back up to me and said "You didn't read these, have you?" He said in a concerned voice.

"I read one.." 

"Please don't read anymore. Just please don't.." His voice cracked.

"I won't." I replied sincerely.

"Don't you believe what they say. Just don't because you are so fucking perfect and you don't need to change for me. You're so normal and different than anyone I have ever met and I don't want you to change, ever." He took my hand kissing it, and then I felt little pecks all the way up my arm and onto my neck. His cheeks were wet from crying, and I could tell what the magazines said really bothered him. Then he pulled me closer and smashed his lips to mine. I couldn't help but push myself closer and closer to him until there was no more space.

Then lyrics started singing in my mind.

Your heart’s against my chest lips pressed to my neck..