STARGAZER

CHAPTER 17: STARGAZER

(DAY 14, IN TORONTO)

I wake up to the sound of raindrops against the car windows. Niall's breath is warm on my cheek and his eyes fluttering. He's not fully awake, but I don't want to wake him up. I took out my phone and looked at the missed calls. 

One missed call from "mom." I should call her. She's my mom. I really don't want to talk about Niall to her until we're done with this whole tour. I'm just so sick of it. I just want to go home, or stay with Niall. I'm leaving Toronto for one more stop and then home. But i'm terrified of home. I don't want to tell my mom that I've fallen head over heels for a guy that I just met for almost 2 weeks now. I don't want to tell her I want to be with him every hour of every day. She'll make fun of me. She'll call me stupid. She wouldn't understand.

Maybe that's what she knows. Maybe if she knows how serious I am about it, she'll understand. She'll not judge me by what I've done but by what i'm doing. 

I'm going to ditch the tour.

That's it. I'll do it. I'll ditch and my mom won't even know. I can't stand being away from him. I can't stand it anymore, no matter how far away from him I am i'll always be sad. 

Just laying there at this moment and staring at his lips pouting a little and his eyes moving under his eyelids. The way his hair is sticking up every which way makes my heart flutter a little bit knowing that this beautiful person with his arms around me is mine. He's mine and no one else's. 

I felt him sigh and then his eyes slowly opened. He just stared into mine for a couple of seconds and asked, "How long have you been awake."

"Eh. A few minutes." I smiled in my words.

"Are you alright?"

"Yeah I am." I reassured him. 

The van was pretty spacious. It was big enough for me to climb into the front seat. 

"Niall. You can sleep if you want. We're not far away from the hotel."

"No. No i'll stay up with you." he yawned and I knew he was still tired.

"No. Lay down. Sleep."

He laid back down and looked up from the pillow. I put my hand on his cheek and he whispered "Will we get food soon?"

I laughed and reached into my bag in the passenger seat. I remembered to bring something to eat just in case so I grabbed a box of donuts that were complimentary to the room. I handed them to him and kissed my hand before reaching for the box. He ate 3 and laid back down to fall asleep. The car started, and the rain was pouring.

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"Wake up. Wake up Niall." His eyes were clamped shut. I knew he was awake but he didn't want to get up. 

"Come on Niall. We gotta get you up there for you to get ready for the concert and you gotta meet with the boys I'm pretty sure." I mean, I think because I know he has sound checks.

His arms came up and pulled me down, laying next to him again. "I don't want to leave you." He whispered into my hair.

"I know. I don't want to leave you either. But you have to." 

"But. Will you be there? Please will you come. Please?"

He seemed so sad. 

"Yes. I'll come. I promise." I can't wait to tell him i'm coming with him on tour. I need to. 

"Now get up. Gotta get moving. Paul will be furious.." I said pulling the blanket off of him. He sat up and he had the messiest hair. I smoothed it out with my hands and he kissed me right on the nose.