STARGAZER

CHAPTER 6: STARGAZER

I heard his voice.

"wake up, wake up, wake up Soph." Slowly fading back into perspective. I finally caught my breath and sat up. I can feel the sweat run down my face, my lungs aching for air. 

"What's wrong Sophia. What was it." It was still dark out, and his arms pulled me back laying me down. "Nothing. Just a bad dream again." I choked out of my mouth. Lately I've been dreaming of my past and I don't know weather it's a bad thing or if I should even be worrying about it. 

"Just sleep." He whispered cooing me back to unconsciousness.

(DAY 4)

Slowly waking up I felt eyes on me. I flipped my eye lids open to see Niall still hugging me. He's still sleeping but I looked over to see the boys standing there staring at us. Louis smilled the biggest and got up on the bed jumping up and down. "YOU GUYS WAKE UPPPP!" He sang in a loud voice. The others came in repeating the words 'wake up' over and over again. Niall opened his eyes slowly and looked over to Louis standing over us. He groaned and shut his eyes. 

"LOUIS, TIME TO GET THE WATER." Harry shouted. I got up as quick as I can with Niall grabbing on to me like he didn't want me to get up. I did though because knowing them they really would throw water on us. "I'm up! I'm up! I yelled running into the bathroom to take a shower. 

NIALLS' POV:

Fuck. They are so annoying.

"LADS WHAT ARE YA DOIN'?" I yelled at them sitting up in the bed. They all sat down around me and looked like they were waiting for me to say something. Zayn was the first one to speak after the silence. "So, Niall. Do anything fun last night?" 

"I did. I slept here with Sophia and nothing happened." Being next to her was all I needed.

"But usually when you like a girl you fuck her the next night man. What are you doing?" Louis replied quickly.

"I know. But she's different. Something different about her than the other girls i've hooked up with. This time boys, I've asked her to be my girl." It was time to tell them instead of them finding out.

"WHAT? Why didn't you tell me lad!" Liam spoke. I usually tell him everything first before the other boys but I've been to busy with Sophia I haven't had any time.

"I know. I know. It's exciting." I smiled big thinking about last night and all the many nights to come.

"Are you sure you're ready though..? For a girlfriend?" Harry asked concerned. He always is concerned about my relationships.. I like that about him. Always there for me. 

"I think I am.." I trailed off thinking about my ex again. Whenever I think of her my stomach turns in knots like I fall in love with her all over again. Did I do the right thing getting close to Sophia? Should I turn back now? How can I love her when i'm in love with my dead ex? 

I got up and looked out the window. Still screaming fans.. I waved and heard them all screaming my name. They always cheer me up no matter what. 

"Well. I'm going to wake up Bea. And we are going to the beach again today." Harry said walking out the door. 

"WAIT, Harry we have a concert tonight. Don't forget.." He was already gone though. I really do hope he remembers. 

The concert. Tonight will be the first time Sophia gets to see me play and sing! Agh, I hope she likes us.. That's the biggest part of my life and if she hates it, then she hates me. 

"We have sound check in an hour so we have to be on the bus in 30 minutes to get there on time.. I'm guessing Harry isn't going so it's just us. You bringing Sophia with ya?" Louis said putting his hand on my back. "Yeah, I am. Don't we have a few interviews too? Harry can't skip out on this. You gotta go catch him." I said, and the boys were out of the room in seconds. If I didn't remind them Harry would have been dead.

I was looking around the room waiting for Sophia to get out of the shower, I saw her suitcase filled with all her clothes. She didn't really wear a lot of color. I noticed though that next to the bed there was a picture of her and her family. They looked so normal, so nice, but in the picture there was Sophia. She was dark, and scary. Her hair was just hanging in her face, pitch black instead of her brunette color now. Her eyes were smeared with blackness and her lips were blood red. Her skin was pale white and she was as thin as a nail. There's gotta be something i'm missing about her..

She came out in a colorful outfit today. A blue blouse, a pair of white shorts, and some dark blue sandals. 

"Good morning." I said to her because we never really got to say it with the commotion before. "Good morning!" She said cheerfully. She came over and hugged me. 

I liked that we haven't kissed yet. When she's ready she's ready. Right now it's not about physical attraction it's about just loving each others personality's. I've never had that before.

"I have to leave in 30 minutes. Me and the boys have a sound check and interviews. You could come with us you know. It'd be amazing. And tonight we have a concert and everything and you'll just love it! I know you will." I said enthusiastically. "I'd love to Niall." She said with her head still on my chest. 

We stopped at my room so I could wash up and get new clothes on. I decided just to wear some jeans and a white polo. Something simple, i'm not into outrageous things. We met the boys downstairs in the lobby and snuck out the back way to the bus. "Come on, come on" Paul yelled at us. "We're already late." 

When we got to the stadium it was huge. This will be the night that we have the biggest audience ever. This whole music thing is still a shock to me, like i'm just in a dream. Sometimes I forget i'm in reality.

"Okay boys, this is where we will be doing interviews. If you all would sit over here.." The girl spoke to us. I turned to Sophia and said "There's a room you can sit in, there's magazines, or you can watch us on the tv." She looked sad like she didn't want to leave me. "It'll only be an hour. Then you can come out. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have brought you if I knew it would be this long.." She stopped me. "No, no. I'm fine. Niall it's fine don't worry. I'll see you in a bit, yeah?" She said leaving for the room. She smiled at me and walked through the door. 

The interview wasn't very interesting but like always we get asked about relationships. "So boys, who is single?" 

What should I do? I haven't told management about Sophia being my girlfriend. What if they don't want me to be in a open relationship? Should I say I am? But what if Sophia sees it and thinks I'm mad? 

"I'm single, and so is Harry." I said.

I have a feeling in my stomach something is going to happen. The boys all looked at me when I said that but I just kept smiling at the interviewer. 

The questions were over and I was getting nervous. I walked over to the white room's door and opened it to see Sophia sitting there with a single tear rolling down her face. She spoke first.

"Niall. Why would you say that? Am I not good enough to tell the world about? Should I just leave? Because I can.." Her voice cracked in the last word. I hurt her. I really did.

I sat down next to her trying not to touch her because I know girls can be sensitive like that.

"Sophia. I'm so sorry. It's just management and everything and.. I didn't know what to do. I panicked. I promise, i'll make it up to you." That's all I could say. 

She didn't talk to me much after that. A simple smile here and there when we were in our sound check. Her smile wasn't sincere and that made me nervous. I can't loose her now. Not like this.