Moon In Gemini

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I won't call you when I need you

I won't speak a word

I'm not expecting you to know or to even care

If you did, you'd be more available

I think you're very self absorbed

You only think about you

You did not think of me

You only thought of me when it was convenient

I thought of you no matter what I was doing

I was successful at reciprocity

You failed

But don't worry

I won't beg for empathy

I'm used to this kind of poverty

The poverty of love

I'm used to this kind of abandonment

Abandonment from love

I'm in a loop hole

Experiencing the same emotions over and over and over again

It's like a psychological prison

A psychological warfare

You watch me dive head first into hell

And don't bother pulling me out

It's more of sight seeing for you

You are sadistic

You watch me self destruct with humour

It's entertaining to you that I'm burning

I wonder if I'll still be a laughing stock when there's no more air

What would you think mommy?