Finding Love (Bastard Princess)

"The topic"

Chapter 8

"good morning.. hardy.."

who is he talking to?

"are you talking to your self?" he turned to me with disbelief.

"you think I'm crazy?" he slammed his butt to the chair. "I'm talking to you! who else? its just the two of us here."

"well.. I don't think I've changed my name to hardy? did I?" I groaned.

"that's why I called you hardy."

"why, what?!" I was lost from his words.

"you're so hard to talk to. so I call you hardy! don't you like it?"

I don't understand why I'm still talking to him knowing that he is pessimistic conversationalist.

"whatever you say!" I exclaimed abruptly.

the whole class were in and so is the teacher.

"okay now.. I have a question. what is the greatest and mostly important thing on earth for you.?" my classmates answered positively but turned out wrong.

"anyone now? you!" she is pointing at wait!.. she's pointing at me?!

"miss Zurich.. what is the most greatest important thing for you?" I wasn't ready for this.. I know I'm cheesy.. I look at kaiser who is intensely waiting for my answer.

what to say? I choose to be just my self with my answer..

"um.. actually.. the greatest and mostly treasured important thing for me is...LOVE.." well.. I'm still alive with my answer despite of those whistling around and cheering for my answer.. although, I know my face now is red for sure..

"silent...! that was the perfect answer! thank you miss Zurich.."

"you did well.. but, your face is burning, want some water?" kaiser chuckled.

"shut up!" I snapped at him. he chuckled teasingly..

"and where can you find the greatest love of your life from? explain with your answer."

I stayed silent thinking about her question. of course for me I found it from my mother.

"Zia you are saying something.."

wait.. did I?

"just say it, I heard it though." kaiser whispered at me.

"um.. if it is beyond the earth, my answer is from God.. but since we're talking about love inside the globe. I got the greatest love of my life from my mother.." I stopped and look down on my feet.. I know I still have to explain why? but.. am I ready for this? knowing that, every time I think about her I breakdown..

I felt my feet shivering.. and my breathing become weak.

"Zia you okay?" kaiser held my right hand. and I felt relaxed a bit..

"why miss Zurich?" this is it! its now or never! I have to face this feeling and fight it. I hold tightly onto Kaiser's fist.

"um.. my mother died when I was born.. um.. m-my mother chooses me to live instead of herself.." I feel those tears crashing but I held it right there..

be strong.

your a big girl now.

big girls don't cry..

I heard everybody saying sorry..

I was lost the whole time after that until the bell rang.. I was about to fix my things when I realize that kaiser was still holding my hand, or I was still holding onto him. when I turn to him I saw him staring at me.. searching my emotion if I'm not mistaken.

"you okay now?" he asked.

"um. yeah.. thank you.."

we both left the room and together we walked down the street outside the campus.

"hey! Zia! wait..!" I heard Nicole shouted, so we turn our back.

"hey.. what's the matter?" I asked.

"you know.. the first final exam is coming.. would you like to join us for a group study?" she's so into smiling as always.. how can I say no? in fact, I needed that too..

"sure! where?" I smiled.

"kaiser's place." seriously? at his place.. "if you still don't know, kaiser live in front of your door.." I turn to face kaiser who is now looking away..

"really..?" I said in disbelief.

"yes. so see you there starting tonight. bye." she run away to her car.

"why didn't you tell me we are neighbor's?"

"if I told you, will you ever come and knock to my door just to see me so you can seduce me?" he said smirking.

"in your dreams cocky head!"

"You're heading to your job right?" He asked. I just nodded and turned to face his way on my right side.

"Yeah..why?"

"Why are you working? How about your family? Do they know about you working here?" He sounds like really interested about my whereabouts.

"No, they don't.. And that's a good thing, I'm free, and am having the time of my life alone." I sang with a fake smile.

"Sounds not really good.." He mumbled.

"How about you? Where's your family?" He stopped and look at me with a smile before he answer.

"My parents wants to live in other country so we've been to California a year ago. I don't really like it there so I came back here leaving them behind, so I'm alone here now." He sounds really like happy to be here.

"Well.. that's good for you." I said with I bit sad on my voice as I remember about grand dad and the twins.

"Are you okay?"

"I'm fine." I smiled a bit to cover up the emotion I've made seconds ago.

"I'm sorry about your mother."

"It's fine.. Been a long time, thank you anyway for your what you've done a while ago."

"What I've done?" He was smirking teasing me.

"You were holding my hands for emotional support." I blushed.

"I thought we were doing the holding hands, you know.." Another smirk on his face made me blushed more.

"Can we do that again right now?" He asked teasingly. I think my face now turned to red as hot! When he grabbed my palm to his..

"What are you doing?!" I exclaimed. My heart is pounding so fast like I'm running.

"Holding your hand." He said grinning at me.

"I know! You bad ass! Why you holding my hand.?"

"Cause I want to?"

"Let go of my hand!" I shouted in a low way. But deep inside of me, I felt like something's tickling me and it feels good.

"But I guess your hand liked it. See? It's not moving for a protest?" He brought up our hands together in front of our faces. Then he smiled sweetly..

"Don't keep those things that make you happy behind..Take them and enjoy them, okay?" He said seriously. "And don't let go of my hand while holding yours, just hold back and let them be.."

My mouth just shut out and let our hands be together while walking down the road to my work place.

"There! I guess I have to let go of your hand for now.. Be good at work Zia.. See you later.."

I felt numbed after he kissed me on my cheek..

Is this really happening??

Woah!! Can somebody please wake me up!? I'm dreaming!!!

"Zia! Your time is up! Come in now!"

Okay! I guess I'm not! That kiss wasn't really a dream! And I just realized that he was gone a while ago and I was just standing there outside for almost 15 minutes! Is that even possible?