1. shoutout to Xjay12 bc they added this to a reading list and it made me smile
2. look at my baby ethan in the photo 😍❤
3. yes, two updates in one day. don't get used to it haha
After a short moment, he follows me into the house and I screech when I see Lip. He flinches at the sound, but when he realises it came from me he smiles and comes to hug me. In his arms, I feel safe, like there is a bear wrapped around me willing to fight the world for me. It felt intense.
I hear a huff behind me and notice Carl looks down as he walks towards the sofa. I shrug it off, there's no way it could be my fault, I didn't do anything to upset him. As I'm grinning like an idiot, I walk into to kitchen with Lip and we sit at the table and he speaks up first; "why does Carl look like someone just told him they're pregnant with his baby" I shudder at his choice of words, but once it processes I laugh out loud. People on the street probably heard me guffaw. In between breaths I seemed to manage "is that what you looked like when Karen told you?" I ask. I get a small punch on the shoulder for that but I calm down quickly after that.
We talk about college, beer, girls - all the stuff Lip's enjoying. And once again, when it comes to me, I'm drawn up blank again. I check behind me to see Carl had vanished, probably upstairs so I start talking about what's really running through my mind.
"Carl is still dating Dominique," I huff "she makes him happy and I'm happy that it's going well, but there's something off about her. She's not gonna be good for him in the long run. He buys her things, talks to her at school, even goes to her house until late, but it all seems one sided. He does all this shit for her, and she does fuck all. Maybe a few blow jobs here and there but is that what a relationship should consist of? Shouldn't the feelings be completely mutual?" I rant on, not really thinking. but mentally adding 'like ours were'
He listens to me and smirks "you still like him." I just sigh in defeat and nod.
Carl is sat on the steps, and hears the whole thing. He thinks over what she has said and considers the accuracy. 'Was she right? Did I give too much to Dom? Nah, I love her and she loves me. But then, I've stopped doing shit for her and that, and she's changed nothing.' he continues to argue with himself mentally. (the main perspective is your pov but sometimes I'll throw in some omniscience haha)
Lip sighs as well nodding. He knows that the feelings during the break up weren't mutual but he vowed to me that he wouldn't say anything to Carl. He continues to talk about some random shit that happened with his 'not really' girlfriend and that is the main reason I love him. He knows what to say when I need help, but he also knows when to not say anything.
After what feels like hours, I'm still laughing but it's dark outside. Once I realise this I tell Lip that I better get home. Before I leave, I run upstairs taking two at a time to find Carl in his room. He looks up and smiles sadly. I walk over and sit on his lap facing him, basically straddling him, and cock my head. "What's up?"
"As soon as you saw Lip, you ran into him. You seemed so happy to see him and you forgot about me" he whines.
I laugh at how ridiculous he's being "aww, is my princess jealous" using his nickname from earlier. His cheeks darken and I stroke them. "I have to get going now to show my face to my mom, if she's in"
"Can I come with?" he asks and I agree, seeing no reason why not. I jump up and say bye to Lip with a hug on the way out. As I step out onto the street I see Lip rolling his eyes at Carl and I smile towards him. Grabbing his big hand in my small ones, I drag him towards my home.
We walk though my door to see my mom bouncing on one of her customers. I sigh and sneak past as her moans are filling the room. My hand is holding Carl's so tight I'm surprised his circulation is still going.
I practically run into my bedroom and shove my head under the pillow. I can still hear her and I cringe. Carl pulls me into his arms and I burst in to tears. Cursing mentally.
I apologise for my sudden crying "I'm s-sorry. I just hate that she does it here. I usually avoid that" I say forcing a laugh. He stands up and starts rummaging through my drawers and I'm confused. "What are you doing?" I question with a slight voice break at the end.
"Grabbing your...
(oh shit I did it again 😛)
chapter question: wtf is Carl getting and why did he seem so desperate for her attention?
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oxygen - carl gallagher story {𝓭𝓲𝓼𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓾𝓮𝓭}
Fanfiction|| A tear rolls down my face "but you said you didn't want me" "I lied" he said with a look of desperation and fear "I want you like oxygen, infinitely" || She wants a boy that doesn't want her, until she becomes the subject of want from others ?
