there's a tiny amount of smut in this chapter, it's barely impressive but I hope you enjoy.
I look down as the heat rushes to my cheeks. He said 'I love you' again and my heart is literally on the moon.
As my eyes focus, I see his bulge and I can't help myself. He stands up to go to the bathroom but I grab his arm and kneel on the floor. "Y/n you don't have to do this. I mean, I have no objections but--" he rants but I silence him with a kiss.
"You want this. I want this" I say with a smile and pull his trousers down, the bulge seems to grow even larger. I yank his boxers down and he springs out. I gasp. It's been a while.
I take him in my hand and Carl gasps at the touch. I rub him and place him in my mouth. He's bugger than I remember but still force myself to take him in fully. I pull back and place small, kitten licks on the end of his dick. He grunts and pushes me forward, I comply and take him wholly again.
I hollow my cheeks and Carl's moan fills the room. I continue, going faster when his moans come faster and he utters a "I'm close." Soon, his seed is coating my throat and I swallow it all and look up at him.
His face has a mixture of pleasure, admiration and shock on it. I smirk knowing the effect I have on him. I get off my knees and walk into the bathroom to wash my mouth.
(that's the best I've got atm. lowkey not in the mood for writing smut but I promised it to y'all)
After eating with Carl, I really need to go home and pack some clothes. We lay on the couch and I place my head in his lap. As his fingers run through my hair, a through the crosses my mind.
I've basically been living here, but to say the words means something more. More to Fiona, more to me, more to Carl. In a short spurt of confidence, I turn my head to face my beautiful boyfriend. "Um" his eyes flicker to my face "I have to go home" he frowns.
"Why? Why would you go back to a house with your whore of a mum when you have a loving family here? You practically live here already and you might as well move in" he shouts, getting quieter with each word.
"I can't live here. It's not my house. Fiona already has a lot on her plate and I can't burden her anymore. Debbie hates me because I wear her clothes 24/7. When Ian and Lip are home, the house is extremely crowded. And you can't want me here. You see me everyday and basically all day, and then we sleep in the same bed. Are you not bored of me?" I say, stating only truths.
"Are you bored of me?" he questions. "Is that why you don't want to live here?" I shake my head. How can he be so oblivious? He is literally perfect, I could never get bored of him, yet he seems to think so.
"No" is all I can say. When I see his eyes I urge myself to continue. Now is the right time to say everything. "I will never get bored of you. That's impossible." I take his hands in mine and stare into his eyes, trying to make him see himself as I see him. "You are my boyfriend and I love you. I have loved you since the day we met. When you pushed that boy because he pushed me, when you sat next to me in a room full of strangers, when you introduced me to your family. Each time showed a different side if you, and every single side, I loved. The day you kissed me, my heart beat so fast and even though our prior arrangement meant little to you, I needed you so I let you do it. Even after that, I still loved you. When you broke my heart and soul, I still loved you. I want you and only you. I could never get bored of you. Even when I'm on my death bed, my dying wish would be to hold your hand, the hand of my soulmate. I want you like oxygen, infinitely."
My tears are rolling down my face freely, as I attempt to wipe them, more come. While my eyes are still blurry, I feel someone grip my face and kiss me lips. This is different then anything I have every felt. There was no rush, just honestly. Passion. Truth. Love. I kiss back with all my might, putting all my words into this physical action.
He eventually pulls away and rests his forehead against mine. "I love you princess. I honestly do." he pecks my cheek and stands. He reaches his hand out for me and I take it. I would follow this boy anywhere.
ngl, this relationship seems kinda one-sided. But who knows, right?
chapter question: I'm thinking of ending this book bc it seems like no one is interested anymore. not really a question but no one answers this anyway
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oxygen - carl gallagher story {𝓭𝓲𝓼𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓾𝓮𝓭}
Fanfiction|| A tear rolls down my face "but you said you didn't want me" "I lied" he said with a look of desperation and fear "I want you like oxygen, infinitely" || She wants a boy that doesn't want her, until she becomes the subject of want from others ?
