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By the time V gets home I've cleaned the whole of downstairs and was just vacuuming the stairs. I hear her gasp and she turns the music off, I turn to face her.
Her face is full of shock and awe "y/n what did you do?" the question sounds like I did something wrong. Shit.
"I decided that because you've let me stay here I need to help in some way, you know I can't pay you so I thought I'd clean" I explain.
She then randomly hugs me and I obviously hug back. She thanks me and tells me to stop. I finish cleaning the stairs and put all the cleaning materials away.
"Y/n, hun, Kev and I are going round to the gallagher's. You're welcome to join." she states. She knows I'll say no but it's really nice that she would offer something like.
"I'm fine here thank you, I think I'm just gonna head to sleep soon" I tell her seeing the clock showing 9:49pm. She nods and leaves. I assume she's meeting Kev there because I haven't seen him yet.
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It's nearly midnight and the music from next door is just too loud. I really just want to sleep because sitting alone in the dark is not good for anyone, let alone me. That's why when there's a knock at the door I have to answer it just to bring myself back from the thoughts of a better life - no life.
The door opens to reveal a boy, his eyes are red. Not high, like he'd been crying. His hair was chocolate brown and wavy, but also greasy. His lips were chapped and everything about him screamed 'sad' and it broke my heart that had already been shattered multiple times. I forget everything he's done to me in that split second and pull him into a hug.
He smells the same and that brings back all the memories. His arms are clamped around me so I try to break free. When I can't get out I whisper "Carl, please let go" and he does.
"You have to leave" I state and his eyebrows furrow.
"But y-- but you just hugged me. You're so--" I cut him off.
"Yes, I know, I'm sorry" It's ironic that I'm the one apologising "i forgot. But you have to leave. For your own sake because the Lord knows you don't care about mine." I say and attempt to close the door.
His hand stops it and he steps inside. His face is inches from my own and he looks so tired. He pulls his hands through his hair and sighs.
He grabs my hand and pulls me to the sofa, as he sits next to me, I move slightly and pull my hand from his. I will not allow myself to let him back in the quickly.
"Y/n I love you. I know this and you have to know this. I love you and i want you. I was selfish to break up with you, I didn't want to live without you but fiona simply stated the family or you. I can't lose my family, but I can't lose you either. You're the one I need in my life, without you, I barely eat, I barely sleep. Please just understand that I'm sorry and I am so ashamed of myself for letting you go" he says and a tear runs down his face.
"But you believed her?" he looks up and I know he didn't understand the question. "You believed fiona that I took the money, didn't you?" this, to me, is the most important thing. He can say he loves me over and over, but if he can't trust me then the relationship will never work.
"No, I could never truly believe that you would do that. I trust you"
I don't have a posting schedule, I just post a chapter whenever I finish writing it so here another
let us just thank god that Carl is finally back ❤❤
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oxygen - carl gallagher story {𝓭𝓲𝓼𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓾𝓮𝓭}
Fanfiction|| A tear rolls down my face "but you said you didn't want me" "I lied" he said with a look of desperation and fear "I want you like oxygen, infinitely" || She wants a boy that doesn't want her, until she becomes the subject of want from others ?
