SIKE y'all thought I was gonna leave you with that short ass chapter? bet you loved the cliffhanger tho. one more thing: TYSM FOR 100 READS 💞
Beep, beep, beep
That sound is making me go insane. It rings in my ears, threatening to push me into a fit of screams. Fiona sees my fidgeting hands and holds mine in her own. "It's gonna be okay" she sighs. I know she can't be correct, how the hell would she know? I just nod, I don't want her worrying over me anymore than she already is.
Once it hits 11pm every night they leave, I stay. I vowed when she hit the floor that I would be there when she woke up.
*Flashback:
Her body slumped and hit the ground. My eyes burned and I turned to her dad. "What the fuck?! Why the fuck would you do that?" I scream and grab a crowbar that was laying on the street.
'No one would miss this fucker' I think as I hit him repeatedly. I only stop when Lip grabs me. I see her dad laid in the floor and drop the crowbar. He deserved it and I wasn't sorry*
I wouldn't speak to anyone. I just sat next to her limp body and hoped. As they all left I held her hand and squeezed. Once they left the room I would speak to her. Ask her to wake up. Tell her to wake up. Beg her to wake up.
I missed her so damn much and it hurt. She was just out of reach, she was here, her hand in mine, but her subconscious was miles away. I wanted her to wake up so I could see her smile again. Her smile, the thing that brightens my day and makes my heart pound out of my chest, the smile I loved.
As she sleeps, I realise all the things I'm missing without her. I don't laugh, I don't flirt, I barely even smile. She makes me human and I love her.
I love her.
As if she can sense my realisation, she squeezes my hand back. I speak to her softly, encouraging her to wake up. "Hey Princess, come on and wake up for me. Come back to me, I love you y/n"
Her eyes open (idk if it works like this so just shh) and go wide with shock. I smile at her fully, teeth and all, and her face does the same. The nurse that checks on her hourly is shocked to see her awake and smiling, but nevertheless comes and talks to her. I kinda blank out when I hear a ton of medical shit I've never heard of but she just smiles and nods.
When the man leaves, I move forward and ask "did you understand any of that? what does it mean?" and she laughs. Her voice cracks when she speak but she says "it means I'm gonna get out soon." with a smile. I swear I could've jumped and screamed with joy, but I just wanted to pull her into a huge hug.
A sad look returned to her eyes and I had to know what it was; "What else did they say princess?" She forced a smile onto her face and said "Um...they said they had to remove my ovaries because they were bleeding too much (again don't come at me if that's not how it works) so I'll never have my period and I'll never have a child." A tear slips down her check and I wipe it away and kiss her forehead.
"That's okay baby, we could always adopt" I say and she looks up at me with a question "We?" and laughs slightly. Shit. I let it slip. I have to be more careful. "um... I mean you could adopt, it-uh there are loads of kids that need parents" I try to recover. But she grins and I know I won't hear the end of that.
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Your pov (finally haha)
Once I leave the hospital, Carl is holding my hand constantly. I'm not complaining but it's just strange. Before I went in I would grab his hand and pull him somewhere or vice versa, but now it's 97% of the time.
I've been sleeping in Carl's room on Ian's bed. My mom isn't even aware that I went into hospital and if she is then she doesn't care. I'm basically a Gallagher now. They treat me like family.
But Carl. As I said, he's been acting strange. He doesn't flirt, he doesn't joke around; he just stares and sits near me a lot. After sitting with the family and the table, I've had enough. I grab Carl's hand and pull him outside.
He stops and I turn to face him. "What the hell is going on with you?" I ask
"What do you mean? I'm fine"
"Well you're not acting fine, you're acting really fucking wierd"
"Well....um...I realised something when you were in the hospital" he says, his voice shaking. He honestly looks a mess and I just truly notice this now. His lips are chapped, his eyes have small bags under them. What could possibly have such an effect on him?
After noticing this, I dropped the bitchy tone and asked "What did you realise?" Little did I know his answer would stop my heart completely...
(wow, not much of a cliffhanger tbh bc y'all should know what's gonna go down.)
chapter question: any suggestions as to what's gonna happen? I only have plans for two more chapters but I need more drama to make more
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oxygen - carl gallagher story {𝓭𝓲𝓼𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓾𝓮𝓭}
Fanfiction|| A tear rolls down my face "but you said you didn't want me" "I lied" he said with a look of desperation and fear "I want you like oxygen, infinitely" || She wants a boy that doesn't want her, until she becomes the subject of want from others ?
