You want to play a game? (BEN drowned x reader)

Her Pain

[And now the same events from "His Pain" from the readers perspective. Have fun ^^]

You were reading and thinking of what to do when Ben comes back, since you feared he could snap at you. As you heard a weak, static yelp you dropped your book and moved back immediately. "B-Ben? a-are you alright?" You asked fearfully, gripping your sheets tightly. "Do I look like I'm alright?" He murmured sarcastically _He looks like hes in real pain_ You quickly shook your head, not noticing your trembling.

You wrapped yourself in your blanket tightly and eyed his as he began to smirk. "May I ask you to do me a favour?" He asked, his voice stuttering and glitching slightly. "w-what kind of favour?" You asked fearfully. _He has no good intentions..._ "I know I told you not to let me near you, but that was before I knew I'm not as bad affected as I thought. So just trust me and let me hug you. I can control myself, I really do, just keep calm" He purred and smiled, but you felt it wasn't just that easy.

_I should listen to my gut feeling and it tells me not to let him close to me_ You slowly stood up and backed away.  "I-I'd prefer not to let you close to me Benjamin. Don't get me wrong, I really love you, but... you don't seem trustable right now." You whispered shaky and fearful, eyeing his blood soaked jacket. He must have noticed your staring and took of his jacket, carefully standing up. You backed away further, fearing he could attack you. "Please... (y/n)... keep calm and most importantly, do not run from me... the more you behave like prey the more I am urged to attack you. I just want you to trust me... I am not going to kill you." He whimpered desperately. "I'm hurting god damn it... I'm holding back just for you, so please help me..." He whined, making you bite your lips.

_can I trust him? He has never really hurt me before... lets give it a try.._ "F-Fine... I-I trust you. Just... d-don't hurt me" You murmured still unsure. He smiled brightly and nodded, seemingly very happy. Sitting down on your bed he layed his hat down "Come here" He purred and petted his lap. _Oh no..._ Hesitantly you sat on his lap, trembling lightly "It's alright sweetheart. Just keep calm" He purred making you relax slightly. He hugged you closer making you gasp quietly "What are you going to do Ben?" she asked slightly wary. "I'm going to numb you and bite you" He said calmly. _Fuck no_ You tried to stand up, but he was stronger and held you down with ease "Shhh... Don't panic, it's alright, (y/n), please calm down" He urged you desperatly. "(y/n)!" He growled lowly making you stop instantly in shook. Scared you began to whimper quietly. He softly rocked you back and forth. "(y/n), trust me, I'm holding back... I will not kill you, I will not let you fell any bit of pain, I will not give you a permanent wound or scar. The bite will heal faster than the numbness takes to wear off. I promise. Just.. trust me.." He softly whispered, sounding surprisingly exhausted and weak. 

You calmed and gulped audibly, hesitantly turning your head to him "I'll let you bite me... but you have to promise to bite me just once" You murmured worried. His eyes slowly turned dark blue, almost purple "I promise my love" He purred and softly kissed your cheek. You smiled weakly and turned your head back, tilting your head to the side. _He sounds so weak... how can he hold back like that?_ You shivered as he pulled down your shirt slightly. Ben softly held your neck with one hand, shocking you making you help surprise. Ben hugged you closer and did something to you shoulder you didn't saw "did you felt that?" He asked cautiously. "felt what?" you asked a bit fearful. He chuckled "I just pinched your shoulder to see if you're numb. Apparently you are" He lowered his head to your shoulder and you waited for something to happen, but you felt nothing.

As he began purring you guessed he was biting you. He hugged you tighter and took your hands. "Y-You're biting me right now, aren't you?" You softly whispered. "Mhm" Ben hummed as response, sounding very relaxed and dreamy. _I seem to taste quite good_ you thought amused. You breathed deep and lent against him a bit more "Its alright Sweetheart, See, It didn't hurt, did it?" You sighed defeated "No..." Ben purred and snickered "Your wound is gone and your sense comes back" He breathed against you neck making you shiver.

You turned you head as soon as your senses were back "And... how do I taste?" you murmured curiously. He licked his lips and smirked "Wonderful. Really, you taste even sweeter than you smell" Blushing madly you giggled and moved your shoulder slightly _It doesn't hurt_ You stood up and held your shoulder "You won't do anything stupid, r-right?" you stuttered. Ben smirked widely and swiftly stood up, taking your arm and twirled you back to the bed, pinning you down. Surprised and fearful you yelped, making him wince slightly "Ow... And I thought my voice is ear rape" He softly sat on your hip and pinned your wrists above your head "Hey... (y/n), do I really look like I'd hurt my own girlfriend?" Ben asked softly and lent down, nearly touching your nose with his.

You bit your lip and shook your head "No, but..." you murmured "I'm just playing with you... venting my energy without Killing someone. I won't even hurt you, so why do you panic?" he interrupted you and kissed your nose "Haven't you killed?" you asked surprised. _how so?_ "I have, that's the reason I didn't bit you right away as you panicked. I am rather calm already, so I just want to vent completely" He softly nuzzled your cheek "Just relax, I won't hurt you" Ben softly purred. You sighed and tensed slightly "How many did you killed?" you murmured quietly. He hesitated and looked down "two..." He muttered. Your eyes widened surprised "That's less than I expected..." you whispered.

Ben shrugged lightly "As I said, I'm holding myself back, since I don't want to be completely insane sooner than I need." He tighten the grip on your wrists _Ouch_  "I don't deny I'm rather insane already" He chuckled, making you tremble _He's more than insane.._ "Aw c'mon (y/n)" Ben loosed the grip on you slightly and moved his hip further down "You know I don't mean it like that" He whined with slight sarcasm making you chuckle _well... at least hes sane enough to be loving and gentle_ "It's not like I let myself pin down by a cannibalistic, insane Ghost. I shouldn't bother anymore" You chuckled sarcastically "Well... good point. Why do you bother? Its way easier if you just let me do. I wont harm you anyways" he chuckled. You bit your lower lip and looked away _I don't want to get hurt_ "I don't know..." He sighed and let go of you, softly picking you up bridal style. "B-Ben?" you squeaked, making him chuckle and softly kissing your cheek. He softly tucked you in, making you smile. "Thank you" He picked up the book and gave it to you "You're welcome.." He murmured and smiled.

He sat down with his back to me. "M-May I sleep next to you? I fear if I enter the game my fuses could blow and I wreak havoc..." He murmured sheepishly. _He seems so weak and helpless... So why not_ You softly stroke his side making him flinch "then stay, just don't do something stupid" you muttered amused. Ben purred loudly and took of his shoes, laying down next to you "Thank you (y/n), I love you" He purred. You giggled and began reading again "I love you too Ben, I'm just a bit wary with you right now." You chuckled and glared at him from the side. Huffing he turned his back to you "Well... then good night Miss >I don't even trust my boyfriend<" He muttered clearly amused "Good night mister >I expect a human not to fear an insane ghost<" you gave back with a chuckle. Putting away the book and laying down.