Diary of a clumsy but sensitive person

Someone. No name, no clue.

Hey. Tonight I'm going to talk about a particular person. I won't give any name or any confidential information. What I'm about to write can be true for several person in my environment but I am writing this one for one particular person.

I met you under very complicated circumstances. And it was part of your job to help me. But because of your job and the relationship between us it implied there are many things I just couldn't nor can't say to you.

Things have changed. You have changed. I have changed. Our relationship did as well. And yet, something is still there like I can't say what but there's a bit of myself that I find in you and even if I can't really explain it clearly it does means a lot to me.

But since we met, all that happened is you helping me and me telling you most of what I never told anyone because I didn't feel like I could tell it to anyone else. It happened to me several times in my life to meet someone I felt I could trust. Most of the time it was a one way thing. But I truly need to know you, I need to learn things about you because I feel vulnerable and the fact that you're not the only one is not really helpful. You know many things about me but what do I know about you? Barely anything... Almost nothing. Because it was never part of your job to talk about yourself was it. I know it. I don't blame you. But now things have changed. And I would like to discover things about you. There are so many questions I would really like to know about you, your life, yourself, anything really.

Things are not easy for me right now. But even if I'm on my own I know I still have people by my side. Even if we can't be physically in front of one another, I know how to listen. But it doesn't seems like anyone is getting that. I can listen and I am actually quite good at it but you won't talk to me because things may get awkward. Look. I am a weirdo and whatever you may think, nothing is awkward for me. Things are never awkward or bizarre or strange. They just need a point of view and sometimes an explanation. But I am willing to listen to whatever explanation you can possibly give me. I will listen to you no matter what.

So please keep that in mind the next time we talk.