Diary of a clumsy but sensitive person

Mind peace for a few days

You never really get better the way you expect. It's not coming in a night time. It can be just as hard as keeping up. Healing from depression is never really complete there's always a possible relapse waiting for you in the back of your head. 

I have spent a week of everything. With people I like, in a place I like, no lessons, no preasure, no program, just me and what I like. 

It feels great to be able to hug your loved ones. It feels even better to get this funny feeling of freedom from your own mind. Like everything was just a bad dream and it was over as soon as I got in this place. England. There's a huge feeling of well being over there. Nothing seems real but everything is. Just seems like the reality is there and all the rest is just a bad but temporary dream. 

My body have experienced pain. The pain was gone for a week. Got back as soon as I did. It's funny how your mental health is directly related to your physical health. That is what hit me yesterday. I got back in the nightmare and so did the pain. I escaped for a little while and so did the pain. I find it quite funny how obvious it got this time !
I have a little bit more than 55 days left until my course is definitely done. Hopefully I will get everything sorted in time and go back home as quickly as I can so that I can go and settle in the place I have always wanted to be. 

I have amazing people around me. I have an absolutely amazing amount of beautiful souls in my surroundings. I wish I could thank them all for them being part of my life...
My mind is off. My brain is off. For once it is a good thing. It will probably stay like that for a few hours. Then I have to plan my schedule and all of what is going to happen in the next few weeks. 8 weeks left. Freedom is coming, not long to go. 

Feeling complete is an amazing feeling. I really wish all of you to experience it this way. It is an amazing thing. Beautiful. 

Hope everything goes ok for everyone <3