Diary of a clumsy but sensitive person

Moving on...

Written about the end of July 2018...

Today I read something that made me want to put a few things black on white again for a long time.

"There is a purpose for everyone you meet. Some people come into your life to test you, some to teach you, some to use you, and some to bring the very best out of you."

I have no idea where or who this is from but I want to write about it.

Every single person I meet makes me different. It changes my way to see things, it helps me realise things that I would never have noticed before, it makes me learn a lot more than I would expect.

In the past two years, my life has considerably changed, especially in this last year. I met many people from many different places and who taught me very different lessons about life itself. Some important people to my eyes are reading this. Some are just wondering why it's been so long I didn't post a word. Many reasons. Too many to share I guess. In the past year, I have meet about 5 different person who completely changed who I was. I won't say names but I shall let you know the first letter of their names so that they can recognise themselves if they ever read this.

R first. R completely changed my way to think about how things should go and how stressed and clingy I used to be. His lesson to me can be summed up in one sentence: learn to take a step back over things that are happening to you. So I did, I learnt and I realised how amazing that lesson was. This person also taught me what love should be like. I am so grateful...

T. T used to be a professional relationship that shouldn't have gone any further. I lost T when I was learning my second lesson, being too present in somebody's life is not a good thing if they don't want you in it. Before I lost T, we had decided to be friends over a professional relationship (for T's job it was very unprofessional). Then I was too much and I lost T. It also taught me that I could live my life not being so much over people's back. Even the ones I care for.

O. O is also somebody that has a professional relationship with me. Had. O taught me how to embrace a trait that I didn't know about myself. I learnt how to deal with my sensitivity with O but not always in a good way. I didn't handle it very well and I had to leave the place I met O so our relationship has ended as well.

C. C is an amazing friend who is so shy that I have only really learn who the person C is in the last few months when I had to leave her. Dear C, I know you will probably be reading this, you are an amazing person who needs to believe in the greatness you have in you. Be kind to yourself and everything will be alright, embrace your sensitivity and learn to live with it in a good harmony with the relationship you have with your physical body.

F. F is not standing for a person. F is here standing for my family and friends who believed in me when I didn't believed in myself.

All of these people needs to hear a massive Thank You from me. For all the lessons I have received from you all about my own self, I am grateful.

For those I have lost, I am very happy and proud that you have been part of my life for a while and had such a big impact in it.

Thank you.