That Nerd?/ Ponyboy x Reader

Chap. 23

"Never have I ever... had sex." I smirked. Curly smirked and took a swig.

"What? With who?" I laughed.

"Plenty of people." He shrugged. I scrunched my nose in disgust.

"Gross." I made a fake puking noise and he laughed at me.

He smiled but his grin suddenly disappeared when he looked out the window.

"Shit!" He yelled, jumping up and grabbing his things.

"What?" I asked.

"Street lamps are on! Tim is gonna kill me!" He exclaimed as he chugged the remaining of the vodka, which wasn't much.

He smiled and gave me a quick kiss before shooting out the door.

I wanted to ask him why he kissed me but he was already gone. He was probably drunk.
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Ponyboys POV

I walked into Bucks, a drunken Dally clinging onto me.

"It was a turtle!" He yelled as I pushed him upstairs.

"It was a rock and you weren't 'saving' it from the car." I sighed as I opened his room door.

He stumbled to his bed and immeadatly curled into a ball, sucking on his thumb and falling fast asleep.

I smirked and rolled my eyes, pulling off his shoes and covering him before leaving.

I knew what room she was in. I stood in front of Dallys door for a few seconds, watching her door.

I missed her. So bad.

My hand quivered as it threaded to knock.

I swallowed and went to step in front of the door but it flew open.

Curly stumbled out with a grin.

"Curly?" I said much too loud because he spun around and smiled.

"Hey Pone. What are you doing here?" He asked.

"I um had to get Dally home. What are you doing here?" I asked.

I knew the answer. Why did I ask?

"I stopped by to um.. see y/n." He said as he wiped lipstick off his lips.

My bottom lip trembled and I nodded, forcing a smile.

He smiled and took off downstairs and I let a whimper escape my lips once it was just me in the hall.

I slapped my hand over my outh to keep from crying out and slid down the wall, tears streaking my face and I squeezed my eyes shut.

"Stupid." I sobbed.

She was in the other side of the wall. All it would take was for me to walk in there... but I couldn't. I couldn't bring myself to look her in the eyes and say those 3 things. Not after Curly. Not after her leaving.

I wanted to. God did I want to but I physically couldn't. I hurt so bad my body couldn't move.

So I didnt.

I sat there. Maybe for hours just crying, not caring how many people saw me.

Once Bucks was quiet and I could see sun from the bottom of Dallys door was when I left.

I knew Darry would be pissed, but I didn't care.

I stopped in front of her door. Waiting. I don't know for what. Maybe for me to get the courage to knock or for her to just know I was there.

But it didn't happen.

So I left.

I left tear stained and heart broken.