Secret Love

12

Ariella (Present)

At the end of the school day I didn't bother sticking around for cheer practice. Instead I walked all the way home, when I arrived I immediately went upstairs and crashed onto my bed. The tears that I've been holding in all day come flooding out.

How could Alex say something like that?

I've been trying to protect our relationship and he has the right to accuse me of being ashamed of our relationship. Why the hell would I be ashamed of our relationship?

I love him, so much. But right now I don't know what to think of him.

He tried talking to me the rest of the school day. But I ignored him, he even tried texting me. My phone dings inside my pockets.

The first text is one from Jess asking me where I am. All the rest of them are Alex asking me where I am, how sorry he is, hat he wishes I would respond and talk to him.

My fingers swipe underneath my eyes to wipe away the tears there. I go to my messages and only message Jess back.

Sorry, I wasn't feeling to good so I just walked home

Oh, are you okay?

Yeah, I think it's just cramps. I'll be fine

Okay! If you need anything just text me. I'll need someone to talk to because Alex is being all Mr Gloomy right now 🙄

Oh

I don't even bother worrying about why he's in a bad mood because I know exactly why he is.

He broke a promise, a promise he said he'd keep and it hurts. It really fucking hurts.

***

The next day I had my mom take me to school so I could avoid being in a confine space with Alex. I told Jess to just go ahead to school because my mom was taking me. Alex gave up texting me around eight last night, but when he found out that I had mom take me to school he texted me again.

Come on El I said I was sorry. Did you really need to get your mom to carry you to school?

Like all of his other text messages, I didn't respond. I know I might be acting like a bitch right now, but what he said hurt.

When he found me at school he tried talking to me. Once again I ignored him, he stared at me for so long before he finally gave up and walked away, punching a locker at the same time.

Jess was asking me why he was in such a bad mood but I played it off like I didn't know. Jess also didn't want to be at cheer practice alone again so I had to go today. I texted my mom after school ended and asked her to pick me up in an hour.

Alex's eyes were on me the whole time during practice. I've always been able to tell when he is looking at me. The fact that his eyes were on me made me feel good but I was still mad at him. After practice I only said goodbye to Jess before I jumped into moms car.

But by the last Wednesday of school, going on like this I finally decided to talk to Alex. He seemed to have gotten the message by the third day that I didn't want to talk to him. Now I just felt so bad for treating him like that.