people ask me
regularly
about how i deal with the heartbreak
because i fall in love too hard
or how i deal with breaking hearts
because i can't stop falling out of love
but to be honest i don't
i don't deal with it
every night the names of my past loves
echo in my brain
i think about how they felt
how i felt
what i could have done better
i think about if they're still hurt
and what they think about me now
did they ever hate me
or tell their friends about me?
all I've ever wanted is just to be in love
i want to fall in love permanently
but my heart is too fast
i convince myself that I'm in love
when really i just want love
it's different
and someday i will learn
how to be the heartbreaker
and the heartbroken
without bringing along my guilt
YOU ARE READING
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Puisi"i trusted you and you lied. the memories lasted, but you didn't." -thank you for all of the support and love, I'm just a teenager trying to figure stuff out so everything you say in support of me is wonderful and i love you all so so much thank you...
