Falling in Love With my Rival

~Chapter 9~

WARNING SELF HARM IN THIS CHAPTER
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The next two months Tomoki didn't come to school. I'm starting to get worried that something happened to him. I want to make sure he's ok but I can't find him anywhere. Daichi keeps trying to cheer me up by making me go out and have fun but it's not working.
Right now I'm just at home alone, with a blade in my right hand and blood dripping down my left arm into the sink. I've been cutting myself after Tomoki didn't come back to school for two weeks. I don't know if it was my fault that he stopped coming to school or whatever else but, I wanna see him again.
I grab a bandage from the cabinet and clean up the blood. I wrap up my arm and grab my stuff, then I leave the house and head off to school. When I enter the gates I look up at the rooftop and see a figure standing on the top, looking down as the students walk through the gates. WAIT! COULD THAT BE TOMOKI!? I drop my bag and zoom into the building,heading for the stairs to the roof.
When I get to the rooftop I see the figure of a boy. The boy turns around and I see Tomoki's wet face from tears. I run over to him and wrap my arms around him.
"I thought I would never see you again." I say as tears start to run down my face.
"Well I'm sorry but I shouldn't even be here. It was a mistake to come." Tomoki says and starts to remove my arms. As Tomoki starts to walk away, I grab his shoulder and he turns around. "Mika I really need to leave before I make matters even worse. Please."
"No..." I say as I look at him with tear filled eyes. "I'm not letting you leave me again!"
"Mika. Please. You don't understand."
"THEN MAKE ME UNDERSTAND TOMO! PLEASE I DON'T WANNA LOSE YOU AS A FRIEND!!"
"It's the best thing to do Mika. How bout you go see Daichi. He's probably worrying about you."
"If your trying to make me leave and then disappear again, it won't work. I fell for it once I'm not gonna fall for it again."
Tomoki takes my hand off of his shoulder and holds it in his hand. "But.... that's the best thing to do. You need to forget about me."
I squeeze his hand and say, "Why!? Why do I have to forget about the person who came into my life, told me his childhood in the first month we met and then tried to leave me without telling me why!?"
"Because if you don't then you'll just die like every other person I've ever cared about!!!!"

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Sorry I've been grounded from my phone and still am I'm only able to write this cuz I'm on my phone without my parents knowing (aka savage) we'll still I'm sorry about this!!!!! Plz forgive me!!!