"Cam?" a voice said. She put her sleeves down and turned to see who the voice belonged to. Seeing Dick made her relax a bit. "What are you doing out here? And without a jacket? Are you crazy?" he said taking his off and wrapping it around her. She tried looking away from him so he wouldn't see that she's been crying. But it was too late. "What's wrong?"
"It's nothing," she said looking down and wiping the tears.
"No offense but that's a load of bullshit," he said. She laughed a little and so did he.
"I'm fine, Dick. Don't worry about me," she said wiping her eyes and dismissing him.
"Cam-," he tried to beg but she wouldn't budge.
"Dick. I'm fine. Just go back inside," she said pushing him gently to the door. "I need to breathe in the fresh air December gives." He gave a concerning look. "Gotham offers this once in a blue moon. I want to dwell in it." Dick started laughing causing Cam to slap him. "Just go," she said pushing him more. Dick decided to let her be and went inside. She looked out into the forest and decided maybe it's a nice time for a walk.
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She was making her way through the woods. It's where she would go to cry. Crying in her room was bad. Anyone can walk by and hear her. She discovered this place when her family was having brunch one fall morning. She looked over and saw the spacious woods. No one would suspect a thing. So that's where she was. Walking along the path, she let the tears fall.
She's never felt more useless. The voices in her head debating on how to feel. One side is saying she shouldn't be sad. That her family loves her and she's just being delusional. She is the daughter to the 3rd wealthiest man in the world. What more could she possibly want? But it's the other voice that is holding her back.
That voice despises her. It humiliates her. Degrades her. That voice overpowers her friendly one. She always hears it calling her a whore and other nasty words. The worst part is it isn't her voice that says it. It's the Joker's. She always hears his voice. Calling her kitten and saying what he'd like to do to her. She always thinks back to the night of the gala and what followed. How her rapist looked her dead in the eyes and said you deserved it.
"Maybe I did," is what she mumbled to herself. Is what she mumbled when the Joker was finished with her. It's what she mumbled at night when she held the pillow close so no one could hear. It's what she mumbled when she got out her razor and sliced it along her pale skin. The countless scars she's made on her arms. She did it because of the release. Isn't that why most people did it? Well that's what she did it for.
"Cam, are you okay?" Cassie asked sneaking up on her. Cam jumped a little and turned to look at Cassie.
"Yes, I'm fine," she said her voice shaky.
"You are not-," Cassie said approaching her.
"Cassie I said I'm fine!" Cassie stood in her place not wanting to go any further.
"I'm trying to help, Cam. Don't need to be defensive. You are obviously not fine if you're in the middle of the woods crying."
"Leave me alone, Cassie!" she screamed at her. Cassie put her hands up in surrender.
"Fine. I'll go. But just remember I was trying to help." Cassie walked off a little pissed knowing the one friend she trusted was doing this to her. While Cam was collecting her thoughts she decided to text the one girl who she trusted.
From: Cammie
To: Tayy
hey babe
From: Tayy
To Cammie
what's up?
From: Cammie
To: Tayy
how do you know something's up??
From: Tayy
To: Cammie
i always know when something's wrong. im your girlfriend :) also you're at a dinner party so you either text if your bored or upset. im guessing upset.
From Cammie
To: Tayy
i just want you to come. meet me family :)
From: Cammie
To: Tayy
pick me up in 10 :)
Camilla smiled and raced her way out of the woods. She snuck inside and got her car keys from the kitchen. But while she was grabbing them Diana was sitting in the kitchen with a glass of wine in her hand, smirking.
"Where you going?" she said sipping her wine.
"Going to bring a friend."
"A friend?" she asked raising her eyebrow.
"She's kinda more." Diana's smirk turned into this huge smile. She ran over to Cam and embraced her. "You can't tell anyone. Bruce and the family don't know about her. They just think she is my friend. I don't want anything to change."
"I swear on the lasso of truth I will not tell a soul. Besides, I had this feeling. When I look at you I see a more free woman." Cam smiled and hugged Diana again.
"Thank you so much," Cam said through tears. She let go and wiped her eyes. "I'm kinda glad I wore waterproof mascara." The girls laughed and Cam decided to leave. She started her car and sped out of the driveway fast. She wanted to see the woman who set her free
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She got to Taylor's house and honked twice. A disgruntled girl came out. She had her purse open and only one shoe on while the other was in her hand. Cam saw her and started laughing.
"This is the woman who I love with all my heart. Glad to see she has it together like me." When Taylor entered the car she leaned over and gave Cam a kiss. A tender one on the lips. Cam smiled into it. She licked her lips and tried to guess the flavor. "You taste like cherry. Is it new?" Taylor looked at her and smiled.
"You notice everything." Taylor finished putting her shoe on and applying the rest of her makeup while Cam drove like a maniac to get back to Wayne Manor before her father noticed she was missing.
"Were you just waiting for my text?" Camilla asked when she stopped a red light. She took the time to look at her beautiful girlfriend who was applying lipstick.
"What if I was?" Taylor said smirking. The light turned green but Taylor said to not go yet.
"Why?"
"I need to finish this one thing," she said while looking into the mirror to apply her lipstick. Cam rolled her eyes but smiled at that. "Okay, you're good." She flipped the mirror up and Cam went on the road. Taylor's curly hair was bouncing as she danced in front to whatever hit song was on the radio at the moment
"God you are the light of my life," she staring at her lovingly.
"That's beautiful but I don't want to die tonight. Eyes on the road Missy."
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how it all went down {batfam}
Fanfiction"I looked at all of you as a family one night and saw how you all didn't need me. You all were just talking and smiling. I knew that if I walked in that would be gone in seconds because Bruce would talk about something I did that wasn't right."...
