My Immortal - Immortalfox fanfiction boyxboy

Chapter Nineteen

I saw Aleks' hand swing turn me, yet I didn't react. It came so quickly I'm not sure if I could have actually avoided it. 

The sound of the slap rang through the air, it was loud and how much it hurt surprised me, because while I knew what Aleks was capable of I never imagined he would bring that pain to me. I had believed in him. I had trusted him. 

The slap made me fall to the ground and I instantly let out a cry of pain, bringing my hand up to my cheek where I'm sure there is a red mark on it. Tears sprang to my eyes as I looked up at him, startled. 

His eyes flashed briefly an icy cold mixed with fury that made me want to shudder, but then the change was immediate. His facial expressions went back to one of a loving boyfriend, as he looked at me worried.

"Oh fuck, Eddie. Shit. Sorry, I didn't mean to." Aleks tried to bend down next to me and get closer to me to inspect, but I jerk away from him.

"Get the fuck away from me," I said, my voice shaking. I'm terrified of him. I don't want to be near him right now, I can't. Right now, he seemed caring, he seemed loving but I had seen it. 

I had seen the monster inside of him, and I don't know if I could ever erase the memory of his facial expression. I had called him a monster plenty of times but I could honestly say it now. 

I've made a huge mistake, by saving Aleks. I could've saved James. I could've been safe, away from him. 

I wipe away tears that I hadn't known where falling off my face and I stood up. Aleks gazed at me, his face filled with remorse but how could I believe that when I had seen how he truly is. 

"Eddie, I'm-" Aleks opened his mouth, most likely to utter a string of apologies and excuses, but I cut him off.

"I don't want to hear it Aleks.. Just.. please, leave me alone." I cry out, the run back towards the house. I go to my room and slam the door shut.

There isn't a lock on the door, so instead I take my nightstand and with a little effort shove it in front of the door. I want to keep him out, I don't want him in here at all. I run to the bathroom, and hide in there. 

Then, I let it out. I start sobbing, my body shaking. I still love Aleks, but I'm completely scared of him. I want away, I want James back. I want him to come back and rescue me but his body is lying in an ocean and nobody is going to come for me, I'm completely screwed. 

I chose wrong. 

With tears blurred I can only think of one thing to make the pain go away. I hastily open up one of the drawers in the bathroom and pull out a razor blade, as tears spill over.

I deserve it. 

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