Day-in-the-Life Of A Bi Person

Entry 24

2018, May 01

~*Ah, yes hell. My constant state of being ('；ω；')*~

sO, let me bring y'all up to date on this bc multiple people are yelling at me, including my gf (ps im sry babe dont kill meh).  The last entry published wasn't me. I didn't write it, but I wasn't hacked. I gave the account info over to yuhboiyung aka darkquad aka pimpmaster69. But don't worry, they don't still have the account info (avoiding actual names for obvious reasons).

The thing that started all of this was; Entry 16. I said that I had help from a friend to help fuckoff someone because I've had enough of their shit, right? Remember how I didn't use names? Or pronouns? Yeah, that was very ambiguous, right? Well, I guess not. Because they came to me the next day, screaming in my face about how bad a person I am and how I'm the ass and I can't even say things to their face and have to do it on a stupid app, etc. So, naturally, I didn't talk back to them. I didn't respond. I guess they took that as a weakness, because not long after, I had a few friends telling me that they we're spreading shit all over the wall of my reputation. bUT the thing that gets me is; I'm the only one who knows who I was talking about. Or so I thought. That action carried out by them proves that they know that they are ruining my life. I could've been talking about literally anyone else, but they know. And it made me laugh. I'm laughing right now as I write this, because it's so...ironic. Ironic in the sense that they always try to act innocent, always play the part of the victim, but when it comes down to it, they know what they do to other people.

One of the things they yelled at me was "really, a narcissistic psychopath? (sociopath) whateVER! That's just what you think of me!" And my answer was; 'Yes, that is correct. If I didn't think you were, I wouldn't've put it in the entry'. The reason I believe it is because I've done my research, like the good ravenclaw I am, and have found that in most cases, note most, not all, the reason people develop sociopathic behaviors is because of a deep rooted hatred for themselves. I stopped reading promptly after that because I have a veeeery sympathetic and empathetic conscience. If I had read anymore, I would've forgave them for all of their transgressions. But I've already tried that twice, and the third time is nOt the charm cause I'm sIck of their shIt. *screams into the void*

Entyway, where was I? Oh yeah. So recently, oh wait, I can't say that, wait yes I can, no okAy Im SoRrY pReTeNd I dIdNt SaY aNyThInG!!

Right, where was I? Oh yeah, soooo. On the bus, moi et deux amis were talking about the whole thing, and one of them said "Ay my guy, slide me ya password and I'll leave a roast [for them]". And my other amigo was like "that's a bombastic idea, my dude." My thoughts behind it was to solely see how they reacted to it. I didn't want to hurt them, per-say, although I don't regret anything that was said about them, I just wanted to see if they would read it. The next day, today, I get on les bus and amigo is like "my guy, they fukin cried and shit" to which I said "bitch why tho" and they thus replied with "yee, [they] fukin started crying and shit, and like told me to deliver this message, 'i'm sorry' [(To be read with utmost sarcasm and air-quotations, as it was presented to moi]). Then they explained the whole situation, and I can't say that, but yeah.

I want it to be known, I'm not responsible for the words or actions of yuhboiyung nor will I ever be. I simply wanted to see if they were still being petty, as they have been for the past few weeks, or if they were over it. I will not be accepting their apology, but I am willing to call a truce (I leave this here as I'm most certain they won't bother talking to me face to face, but rather through people).

So here's a small note for you; the truce being; we are not involved in each other's lives. Period, the End, no more discussion. You keep saying how I won't let go of it, but when I wrote that first entry, you were already off my mind. I'm content with my actions, and am willing to respect you from a distance, if and only if you respect me. That includes people I care about. My friends are an extension of my family, so when you hurt them, you hurt me. I feel an odd sense of sympathy for you, though, because you claim to not feel that. The crimes you have committed against my close friends do affect me, yes, but that's not the only reason why I want away from you. I still won't give you the satisfaction of knowing what you did wrong, because you want me to say it. You already know everything you've done wrong, your actions have proven that. You have only to accept it. I don't tell you these things in person because 1; you give no chance for the other party to talk and 2; I don't feel like talking is necessary. The only reason I have this here is because Emily is currently yelling at me. But just know, try anything again, and you will loose what little respect I have left for you. I will never forgive anything you've done, to me and others. You aren't a good person. I just hope you find a way to change that before it's too late for you. 

La fin