Against The Odds: Guarded

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I almost deleted this book 💀😂

MAYA POV
When we got in the taxi, Lucas gave his address again automatically determining for me that I would be staying at his house again. I don't mind it there and his mom has been really nice and gracious for allowing me to spend the night. I liked staying there with him, in his room, and in his bed. It made me feel closer to him than I already am, but I wish that he would open up to me more than he's been doing lately. He's so cut off all of a sudden and I know something's up.

Lucas wrapped his arm around me and then pulled me onto his lap while we were in the back seat of the car. He began to kiss my neck and then suck on the skin there that would surely leave a mark causing me to squirm. I tried to get off of him but I hopelessly failed. He's too strong. He held me in place and I could feel his erection poking me through my jeans.

"Stop fidgeting glasses...or do...it feels soo good when you do."

"Lucas! I can't have hickeys at work. Dr. Koch will have a fit!"

I looked back at his face to find it split into a devilish grin. His smiles are infectious that I find myself smiling back at him. It's hard for those around him not to smile when he does. It's also something to cherish because you never know when that smile will be wiped away. Lucas is so beautifully broken that it makes moments when he's having a good day that much better.

"You give them to me all the time and its just as bad when I have them. You'll be fine...If you had on a skirt my fantasy would be a reality by now. What happened to that skirt you wore to Gemma's graduation party? You looked to so fit."

Lucas pouts causing me to chuckle and I notice the taxi driver's eyes watching us not so discretely. My face twists and I finally break free from Lucas and sit next to him instead. I wonder how many lovers, the creep of a taxi driver watched get it on in his back seat....I wonder how many people have had sex in his the back seat. I started to gross myself out and moved back to Lucas lap so that I wasn't siting in countless lovers DNA and stayed there until we got to Lucas house.

When we pulled up, Lucas paid the cabbie and stumbled over to unlock the door. When we got in he hoisted me over his shoulder like a cave man eliciting a shriek from me. He began to climb the stairs and scare the shit out of me with every step he took.

"Lucas put me down please?!"

"Shut up! You're going to wake my mum!"

Lucas threw me on the bed as soon as we got into his room and went back to close the door putting a stopper under it before he came back over to me. He pulled me on top of him and began to kiss me making my blood heat up at how hypnotizing and slow yet passionate the kiss was. My arousal grew but I knew we couldn't continue regardless to how badly I wanted to.

"Mm, Lucas..." Every time I opened my mouth to speak again Lucas kissed me.

"What?"

"Lucas...we can't..."

Lucas nibbled my bottom lip and made me kiss him again.

"Lucas we can't. You have to stop." Lucas furrowed his eyebrows and looked up at me confused, before he raised an eyebrow in understanding.

"Red dragon?" I rolled my eyes at his reference to it before I slowly nodded my head and felt heat rise in my cheeks.

"Oh... So you do get it then and you're not so strange after all. Is that why you were being so bitchy at the pub?"

His comment caught me completely off guard and I found myself going on defense.

"No Lucas my period has nothing to do with that! I just don't like seeing other girls pawing over you! You didn't even try to pull away from it."

"Here we go again Maya! It was for work!"

Just for work. I could say the same thing about Peyton. I only have to work with him, but it makes me uncomfortable and I'm not sure how Lucas will react when he finds out. I went to move off of Lucas lap but he held me there again. Before his knitted eyebrows slowly relaxed themselves, Lucas began to grin at me.

"I'm glad you think its funny Lucas! Work is not a justifiable answer!"

"If I have to tell you to shut up again I'm going to duct tape your mouth closed!...You're jealous of those girls at the bar?" The smile on Lucas face got wider and I had to bite my cheeks to keep one from spreading on my face.

"No I'm not I just don't like it Lucas!"

"So you are jealous!"

"You wouldn't like if you knew that P-" I stopped myself before I could finish the sentence and I mentally patted my intoxicated self on the back for not letting it slip. That would have been no way to tell Lucas about Peyton being forced back on me. I will tell him, I will tomorrow when we are both sober enough to have an adult conversation. It terrifies me to think about the outcome of the conversation, but I have no other choice. I have to continue with Dr. Koch, Dr. Adams and, Peyton it's for school....Its for work. Lucas quirked a questioning brow before he smirked slightly and prompted me to continue the dreaded sentence that almost fell out of my mouth.

"If I knew that what? Out with it glasses!"

"Nothing."

Lucas began to trace tiny x's and o's on my back making me shiver. I want him so much. Mother nature has horrible timing.

"You know you have nothing to be jealous about. I love you Maya...Do you want to?"

"What?"

"Do you want to have sex?"

"Lucas gross!...You would do that? Have you done that?"

"No! I would only do it with you if you want to. It doesn't really bother me if I don't think about it too much. You bled when you lost your virginity...granted not as much I'm sure but like I said, it doesn't bother me. I've heard its not so bad actually. We could just get a towel and-"

"Not tonight!" I cut Lucas off making him chuckle and then push me off of his lap.

"But you would?"

"I don't know, maybe...just not tonight my stomach hurts."

Lucas nodded his head and started to take off his clothes to get in the bed and I did the same. He went down stairs and when he came back into the room, he handed me an aspirin and a glass of water after calling me crabby. I set my alarm to wake up earlier since I didn't have a change of clothes for work and lied down on Lucas chest before he spoke again.

"My mum wants you to come to her wedding, if you want to come. I could understand it if you don't...I don't."

I could feel the mood shift in the room and I know that playful cheeky Lucas was gone for the night. I looked up at him and even in the dark I could see the worry in his eyes, but not from being nervous about my answer.

"Why would I not want to go? I would love to go Lucas. What day is it on?" I could feel Lucas tense under me. He ran a hand through his Hair and breathed out deeply before he answered me in a low tone. I swear that I could almost feel his mood shift.

"October twentieth."

I sat up in the bed and pulled Lucas head into my lap before I ran my fingers through his hair and bent down to kiss the top of his forehead. He looked up at me confused, but he worry never left his eyes.

"It's going to be okay Lucas." His jaw tensed and he looked away from me as he began to shake his head no. My heart sunk for how much pain, suffering, and overall problems Clive has caused for Lucas even though he's no longer here.

"It will be okay. I'll be there with you, for you. You won't have to-"

"Can we stop talking about it? I'm tired and you need to sleep if we're going to have to get up early."

I nodded my head and kissed the top of Lucas again before I went back to my position on his chest, drifting off into a peaceful sleep as I listened to his breathing change.