My Protector (Chanbaek)

Chapter 4

B pov

Falling onto my bed hugging my pillow after ending the call with Minseok, I couldn't help but notice how he sounds so happy. "AWWWW why can't I be happy like him and chen".

Jumping up from the bed and making my way over to my suitcase that's sitting on my studying desk. I open it to make double sure I have put the rings in my case. Upon opening the case and un zipping the secret compartment the small black box falls out. Picking it up I slowly open it and there lay beautifully two titanium band wedding rings with a white gold surround. One has a diamond in the centre of the titanium, this must be the one for chen he loves sparkly things but tries to hide it. I place them back into the suit case making sure I don't forget them tomorrow.

Turning around to face the room, standing in the middle of the mess I made earlier, I'd love nothing more then to be held tightly right now, the feel of a warm hug could heal me, wrapping my arms around myself I feel so alone I don't wanna call anyone though and have them feel sorry for me I dont want to be a burden to anyone. I can feel my tears start to build up, I'm in our dorm I don't need to hold them back anymore I fall to my knees on the floor.

Once I start to cry I can't seem to stop that I start to really sob uncontrollably, I feel like I cant breath. Leaning over trying to keep myself up on my knees by placing one hand on the floor to balance and one on my chest to try to catch my breath my body takes over I can feel the anger and hurt inside me that I throw my head up to the celing and let out a scream AWWWWWWW then falling to the floor further and laying down in a fetal position sobbing for what feels like hours.

My sobs start to slow, thinking how
they are all loved up Chen and Minseok, Kai and Kyungsoo. Then there is me and Tj. I know Tj loves me, but I just crave affection and a soft touch not a fist. He doesnt mean to hurt me, he says sometimes I drive him crazy, how I use to be wanting to go out with Kyungsoo and Chen and have fun and just be the fun type of guy I used to be but he never allows me anymore. Pulling up the sleeve of my hoodie on the arm that Tj grabbed earlier I can see the bruise is already coming out and the nail marks will hopefully fade soon.

Awwww I need to tidy up, our flight is at 7 in the morning, wiping my tears I drag myself up from the floor and walk over to the bed to start clearing up the mess.

My phone starts to buzz

Hey Baek hope u will stick to our deal

I let out a sigh, how can I enjoy this wedding if I have to keep in contact with Tj every 3 hours.

Yes I will

Throwing my phone back onto the bed I start on the pile of clothes on the bed putting them away into the wardrobe.

Finally all the clothes are put away now I can try sort out my case.
I scream realizing I forgot my suit oh shit no.

I can hear what sounds like pebbles being thrown at my window.
Heading over to the window I unlock the lock, slide it up and look out only to see Chen, Kai and Kyungsoo with what looks like their suitcases.

"Hey Baek, we decided to have a sleep over in your's so we can go the airport together tomorrow, so open the door" Kyungsoo shouts.

I'm so happy seeing them. I step back hoping we can just leave what happened earlier alone and not ruin our night or trip.

As I head to open the door I check myself in the mirror to make sure I don't look like I was crying. I can always tell them my eyes are red from being asleep and that they woke me.

"Yayyyy im getting married" Chen screams as he bounces in the door followed by Kai and Kyungsoo.

Slipping off their shoes Kai steps over to me and hands me the suit that I was suppose to try on earlier and a few bags with the stuff they helped me buy.