I always knew I was different from the rest of my family. I don't like watching sports, I hate the news, they make fun of my eating habits and there's never any thing we can agree on except that everything is my fault. It's not that I try to be different from them, it's only that I can't do what they enjoy. I'd rather play sports then watch them, I prefer silence to confrontation and mostly I just want to be happy but that's not avaliable here. I don't know if it ever will be, I just want to be happy whether it's alone with lots of dogs or if it's with one other person that actually takes the time to understand me.
I'll do anything to make me happy, even stay with a guy that constantly broke my heart until he found someone better. I want to be someone's 'better' the person they want to be with, at least most of the time. I want to make someone happy, laugh, smile and feel loved and wanted; while all I ask is in return they do the same. I know I'm not easy to love, I make things difficult because I get defensive. I've been hurt in the past, but who hasn't. I just need time and understanding, I need someone to show that they care about me. But truly I just want to to be happy and I hope you'll make me happy.
