brother were are thou?

chapter 31

Dark energy was coming from the shadows, Fallen worked hard trying not to lose everything she heard voice warnings from what would happen. Fallen tried to figure out what they meant when they said soon the darkness will be the only safe place.

Fallen looked down at her hands. How could she ever make a difference when she was born to be nothing special she had been used by those who had magic and people she thought cared about her. She didn't tell her brother or anyone because who would believe her, she was shy when she was completely alone with someone, but the other thing was she was so different than any of the other Pendragon children. How could she make a difference to anyone, she often tried to remember what she could do but it was so hard to do. She couldn't defend her brother's kingdom she was all alone now it was up to her to fix everything or die to try.

She had to choose what she could do what was she able to do? She wasn't the chosen one just the one who knew what it was like to live in the shadows. All her siblings did to her was treating her like an announcement or when she wasn't as they would push her to the sidelines or shadows. She often stood by herself and watch everything as she hid in the darkness, maybe that's where she belonged was all alone by herself to the point that no one could save her. She looked up at the moon thinking she was unable to sleep, so she just stood there trying to hold everything in she used to fight alone when it came to her inner demons. She wouldn't tell anyone about any of it, but she would tell those she didn't know in the shadows most of the people there were dead or fought their inner demons and lost. Most of the time she just sat in the corner listening to everyone keeping quiet.

She had to face it that she was never going to fit in because the people who see the sadness and don't understand often push that person away. Fallen had to make a chose and many of the demons screamed death, but the people she talked to told her that she was better off not being with those types of people but she defended her siblings but she still wanted to punish herself all the time because the demons won't let her sleep or even dream anymore when she did sleep. She never really felt her heartbeat anymore, maybe in her next life, she would do better maybe she would be what everyone wanted. Maybe when she came back she would be the person that everyone wanted around and she won't be a problem anymore. Fallen planned her death, she didn't care anyway no one would even notice if she was around or not. All she had left was to figure out what time of the day but she figured night would be best.

The night that she was ready was after everyone went to bed she snuck down to the were the sworders were kept, that's when she picked up a sword then took her latter to each sibling and put them down she stabbed herself in the stomach. Blood came from her mouth as she laid there she thought and saw everything that had happened in her past and present life. She didn't care anymore at least now all of them would be rid of the pain of the youngest sibling around, she did them all a favor by killing herself. She slowly died with her eyes open she didn't move or try to help herself she had already been dead inside what's the difference if she was alive or dead on the outside. She gave up trying to live she didn't really eat much anymore, so this was all that she could she wasn't sure what would happen after this but it was her time to take her life and make everything right.